O'Malley's Sister

Chapter 42

I sat in the corner of my room.

Tears slowly spilled their way down my cheeks.

It was the next morning, but I hadn't slept a wink.

I kept thinking about how Alex kissed her, and I kept thinking about how every positive or semi-romantic interaction that I had ever made with him was probably a lie.

All the times he invited me to his hotel room, or when I laid in the same bed with him.

I thought, he enjoyed that.

I thought he genuinely found joy in my presence.

But perhaps what he said was the truth.

I was a pillow.

I was just a pillow to him.

Something that he laid his head on without thinking, and then left whenever he wanted.

All my efforts, were for nothing.

They were worth nothing.

I...

I was worth nothing.

I was falling hard for a man that would never love me back.

He god damn kissed me.

He kissed me two times, and I took care of him.

I nursed him and I did my best to make him happy.

He told me that I brought calm to him.

I was a rock, that kept him on the ground when he felt like he was floating in the air.

I thought, that we were there.

We'd finally be a thing.

I'd be his.

...

But, I wasn't.

I was crushed.

I was left out in the cold, sitting in the corner of my room with a literal ache in my heart, stomach, and head.

I told him...

I told him that he could come to me.

All this time, he was going to her and I didn't even know.

Why was he going to her?

Why was he doing this?

Why was he playing with me like this?

Why...

Why...

Why...

I squeezed my eyes shut.

More tears slipped down my cheeks.

I was in physical pain.

It was so quiet.

I heard a knock on the door downstairs.

I heard footsteps move, and I heard it open.

I crawled to my door, and pressed my ear against it.

"Oh, hello." my mum said.

There was mumbling.

"Oh! How could she forget her phone?! Thank you, what was your name again?"

Mumbling.

"Oh, Matty. Thank you, Matty. I'll tell her you stopped by. She might still be asleep." mum said.