That was it.
I knew it.
The solution.
If it worked for him, then god damn it, it'd work for me.
It had to...
After hours that felt like minutes had passed, I embraced Matty tightly.
I don't know what would happen out there.
I knew what I was about to do.
Matty seemed confused for a moment.I hugged him as tightly as I possibly could.
"Sarah," he almost choked out, hugging me back.
"I'll be back." Maybe.
Matty sniffed and reluctantly let me go.
I felt his eyes on me as I traveled to the door, across the room.
I tip toed down stairs, finding what I knew would be on top the fridge in the very back.
A huge bottle of Vodka.
I wasn't daft, I have always known that my parents kept it there.
Every once in a while I would see Nick steal a swig or two from it.
It was heavy. The bottle was as tall as my forearm.
My intentions were quite clear with it.
For a moment, I leant back against the counter, contemplating bringing it back to the room, and drinking with Matty.
But he would probably stop me at some point and I didn't want that.
I figured that once I started, I'd not want to stop.
So instead, without a jacket, or anything except the clothing from the other day, I went to the front door, took a last look at the hall, remembering the day that Alex told Nick that he wanted me on tour with them.
I remember meeting his eyes.
The memory pained me.
Did he just want me on tour to mess with my head? Just to make me experience things that I could have gone my whole life without?
Is that what he wanted?
Because he succeeded.
He won.
She won, really.
Ari-...
I didn't even want to think about her name.
But, it was the push that I needed to take the step out the front door,closing it behind me quietly.
I stared at the cloudy sky.
There was no turning back.
I then began taking the slow steps forward, the heavy, toxic bottle in my hand.
As I took the steps down the side walk, in the direction of Libertine, I looked back at the house.
I stopped when I saw Matty in my bedroom window.
He stared at me, a depressed yet confused look on his face.
His eyes traveled down me, to the bottle in my hand.His eyes widened, and I glanced down at the bottle before looking back at him, as he suddenly looked panicked, placing his hand on the window as he shook his head frantically.
'No.' He mouthed.
I felt my face contort slightly.
Then, I ran.
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O'Malley's Sister
FanfictionSarah O'Malley is younger sister to bassist Nicholas O'Malley. After Nick joins his friends band, and Sarah tags along, she'll take particular interest in Nick's best mate, Alex. Will he return these feelings of interest? Oh yeah.