It was my day off. I slept in. I slept late. It was quiet.
My dad left the house this morning to go collect his truck. It had broken down in the road, and he needed to try to fix it and/or just get it back to the house. I was hungry. Without hesitation, I entered her room. This was normal. I did this all the time.
She's asleep. I go to her. "Mom..." I tap gently as I whisper. No answer.
"Mom..." I shake her a little. Nothing "Mom???" I shake her harder feeling bad thinking I might hurt her. But, she still doesn't respond. That's when she rolls onto her back. And now, I see her face. It's grey, and slightly puffy.Her lips are blue. I scream for her to wake up, I call 911. I can barely hold it together on the phone They instruct me to try to get her on a flat surface, like the floor. I try to, but it's hard. The bed takes up this whole room. I'd have to move it. I try to. and then I try to get her on the floor. I accidentally hit her head on the nightstand on the way down from the bed. She starts to fall sideways. I cry harder. I'm screwing this up.
The paramedics arrive. I let them in. They immediately remove her from the room, and they take her out to the kitchen. It's hard to watch as they try to help her. They try to revive her. It's no use. She's gone. They tell me this. And still, stupidly, I ask them- "Will you still take her to the hospital?" They respond, "No. there is nothing they can do for her either. She has passed."
The very moment I always thought I'd die too... I was stuck here. Feeling deflated, and hopeless, scared, and alone (though, obviously, I was not. A house full of medics, and my neighbor there. I was far from alone. But I was very lonely.)
I'd just lost the sun to my universe. I was now being sucked into a blackhole. I'd lost My first and best of best friends, I'd lost what seems like half of my soul.
Now what was I to do?
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Inside My Mind
RandomThis is a book that is basically a journal that has been exaggerated. I like to call it a semi-fic. I'll keep adding to it as more happens, but I can't promise a schedule, It just happens when it happens. I don't know if anyone is going to like it...
