Inside My Mind

34. Recurrence & Reasoning

Okay, hopefully you guys aren't totally tired of the dream stuff just yet. I have another that I remembered from long ago, and it was a recurring dream. I told my therapist about it, and she had a very interesting response I want to share here.

So, if you haven't yet looked at the picture up to, take a look at it. It'll help you visualize the dream better. Get a good look at it? Good. Now, think of it in black and white, and now we'll begin.

When I was about 7 years old, I kept dreaming I was being chased through a prairie towards a cabin. More, I don't know who or what was chasing me, but I didn't dare look back. I was terrified. I was running for my life. The grass of the prairie felt so tall around me, it almost swallowed me. I felt so small. I didn't know how much longer I could keep running, I was exhausted. But I didn't dare stop. I had to get to the cabin. I imagine it must've been my home. I never quite got there. I always woke up before I could get there. Always about 10, maybe 15 feet away from the cabin. Feeling smaller and more frightened by the second...

Now, being that this dream came to me when I was younger and didn't really understand it well- I thought maybe the fact that I was small meant that I had to be a small animal or something, being hunted or chased by something bigger. But when I told my therapist (as an adult, mind you)... This is what she had to say about it:

She tells me that it's likely that in a past life, that I was killed at the age of 7, and yes, that cabin probably was my home. She said the fact that I could never quite get there meant I didn't make it back to said home alive. And the grass was probably just tall for a small child the age of 7, so that's probably why it seemed so big and overwhelming to me.

"So your therapist believes in reincarnation?" Yes. She does. And, actually, she might be right. It makes more sense than what I was thinking. A small animal? Thinking a cabin was the place to be? Not a tree? No. It would make much more sense that I was human. I couldn't see myself, so I can't verify. But I didn't have time to study myself that hard. So then I ask her, how many part lives can a person have? And did she think I might have more? She said it's possible. And, only I can know that. She said that after this life, I might see who all I used to be, joining them and watching the new, recycled me going about life in a whole new way.

It's interesting. We'll definitely see someday...