It was Different (Daisuga- Haikyuu Fanfiction)

Chapter 11

If I told you where I've been
Would you still call me baby?
And if I told you everything
Would you call me crazy?
Cause baby I'm a dark star, dark star...

-Dark Star; Jaymes Young

The Thursday sun made its journey across the sky, slowly moving a bit each hour, though no one could see it. The grey clouds above hung thick, looming over their small world and a slow drizzle was going outside the closed school windows. The rain hadn't progressed the entire day, as if waiting for that one moment to let loose and pour down all the wrath those thick clouds could carry, but now keeping the anticipation of the obviously approaching thunderstorm while the light shower happened.

The weather brought a sort of gloom into the school, but it didn't seem to bother Sugawara, for some reason, he absolutely loved thunderstorms, it was his favourite weather.

He could sit in whatever room he ended up in, in the calming light of a soft lamp illuminating the words on his page as the pouring rain and booming thunder provided a calm white noise, putting him in a tranquil mood. The lightning would always be a fascination to him as a child as well, the sky lighting white or purple for just a flash as he stared at the grey clouds, wondering when the next boom and flash would make him jump in his seat from shock and pleasant surprise. He never lost that interest growing up, and he never wanted to.

The only thing providing him with the gloom to make him seem like he matched everyone else in the building... was Saturday.

Saturday, when he woke up with a slightly pounding headache, and spotty memory. Usually he never had an issue with forgetting things the next hungover morning, but it was different last Saturday. Instead of not caring about his own stupid drunk state, he couldn't remember what happened with Daichi, or... parts of it.

For the most of Saturday, he only knew two things; one, Daichi had come over, and they talked about something that had to do with trust or their relationship. And two...

I love you

He distinctly remembered Daichi saying those words to him. He remembered Daichi's beautiful, handsome smiling face, looking him straight in the teary, bleary, honey eyes, and saying; 'I love you.'

And he had no idea what to do.

At first, he really only remembered that Daichi had shown up while he was drunk. That he had said that he hated being a mean boyfriend and that he was a burden to Daichi. He remembered that Daichi replied saying he wasn't a bother, that he was a nice boyfriend, things along those lines, but his mind unfortunately refused to match words to visuals and tell him what happened.

Eventually, after an annoying long four hours of marking, grading, and designing a quiz, he gave up and retired to another drink.

Some little things came back to him as he kept working. His mind was more open and vulnerable while he worked, so some memories slowly made their way up front, not that Sugawara deemed them any of the useful ones.

He remembered Daichi saying something about him being a stripper...

A stripper?! Where did that come from...

He remembered Daichi asking about his drinking, but he didn't remember his own answer. He remembered Daichi calling himself an idiot several times over, but had no context as to why Daichi had said so.

Not that I don't agree...

He remembered tears. Not his own, he remembered Daichi's tears. He remembered something powerful swimming around behind Daichi's eyes, but he had no idea why. And that pissed him off a ton because he had no idea why such a perfect man had to cry last night.