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Chapter 25

A/N:  Well that last chapter certainly garnered reaction and so will this one.  _LucayaFeels is to blame if I go missing after this update. lmao. As you read this have faith in me. I have a plan. Try to enjoy!

Maya POV

After putting Gabe to bed I went and joined Lucas in the living room. He was waiting for me on the couch and I could tell by his face something was bothering. I'm sure it had to do with what happened earlier. I sat down beside him and looked at the TV. Neither one of us said anything to each other. I waited for him to speak up and when he didn't I took the initiative to start conversation with him. 

"Just say what you got to say Lucas. I can tell something is on your mind." I said as I turned to look at him.  

"What was with you earlier?" he asked me.

"What do you mean?" I replied. 

"Earlier you flipped out on Gabe when he mentioned me moving in. It wasn't like you at all." he said to me as he finally looked over at me.

"You know what it is? I can't bare to have you here with me and then watch you leave in the morning everyday to work knowing that the week is going to be long and I won't get to see you. It fucking sucks, Lucas." I said in frustration as I tried to keep the tears in.

"I think it's best if we break up. " he said which shocked me because I didn't see it coming. 

"Where is this coming from?" I asked him. 

"I think you are right. I think my work schedule is interfering with our relationship. It's causing Gabe to act out, you are upset. Maybe its just best to be a part. I hate upsetting you both." he replied. 

"I mean if that's what you want then by all means we can break up." I said trying to act like it didn't bother me when  in reality I felt like I wanted to throw up. 

I was trying so hard not to cry. In fact I was barely keeping it together at the moment. I'm not sure how the hell I'm able to contain myself but at the same time I'm pretty good at doing that. 

"You'll still let me see Gabe right?" he asked me.

I nodded "Yeah of course. I would rather it be on weekends though." I replied. 

"That's fine. I'll get some things for him for my place." he replied. "Are you okay?" 

"I'm fine." I replied. 

"You aren't fine." he said and that just annoyed me. 

I turned to look at him and that's when the tears started running down my face. "How do you expect me to be fine? I'll never not be fine if I don't have you." I answered. "I just got you back." 

"I know that but we have to do what is best for our son. He acted out tonight. That wasn't like him and it's like you said maybe if hes a routine schedule everything would be better.

"What ever you say Lucas." I replied. 

Lucas took his hand and he wiped the tears away. "I'm sorry, Maya." he said before leaning in and kissing me softly. I gave into that kiss just like I always do but this time it felt different. This was last time I was going to be kissing him and that hurt me so much to even think about.  Lucas pulled away from the kiss and I opened my eyes to look at him only to see that he was staring right back at me. I managed to straddle him on the couch. He didn't deny me at all. I put my arms around him as the tears continued to fall down my face. I wrapped my arms around his neck and he put both arms around me. I continued to stare into his before finally I decided to lean in and kiss him once more. I felt his hands begin to make their way up underneath my shirt and sighed into his mouth. 

"Make love to me." I said to him after I pulled away. 

"Are you sure this is a good idea?" he asked me. 

I nodded "Yes. Please just one last time, Lucas." I said and by now i was sobbing again. 

Lucas pulled my shirt off me then unclasped my bra with one hand. I leaned back down and kissed him again. I felt his hands on my stomach and shuddered at his touch. He then began to kiss my neck. I moaned in pleasure as electricity ran throughout my body.  I felt his hand brush along my nipple. I stood up off his lap and took my pants off while he got his pants off. We probably shouldn't have been doing all of this in the living room but I felt we would be safe. When Gabe wakes up in the middle of the nights usually later on not this early. I kneeled down and took every inch of Lucas in my mouth until he stopped me. Lucas and I made love and this time was different than the others. It was more tender and bittersweet not rowdy. After we got done Lucas lifted his head up and looked down at me. I was crying once again and couldn't stop the tears from flowing. He once again wiped my tears away for me. 

"You better go." I whispered.

He kissed me once more "I love you Maya. I'll always love you no matter what. This is for the best." he said then he kissed me on the cheek. 

Lucas got up off the couch and began to dress himself. I grabbed a blanket off the couch and covered myself up with it. Once he left I was going to get myself around for bed. 

"No matter what happens." I said as I sobbed uncontrollably. "Promise me you will never let Gabe down that you will always be in his life." 

"I promise Maya." he answered. "Get some sleep." 

"Thank you. And I will." was all I said to him.

"I'm going to head home. I'll get with you this week sometime about getting Gabe." he replied and I nodded. 

"Sounds good." I answered as I stared directly at the TV and not him. 

Lucas grabbed his jacket and headed straight for the door. I didn't watch him leave. I just couldn't. I was completely heartbroken and the worse part about is that I fucking work tomorrow. Once he left I called Riley and bawled my eyes out to her. She was just as shocked as I was but told me to see how it went and that who knows maybe it would work out. That night I cried myself to sleep and the next morning I broke my sons heart when I told him what was going on. He seemed to be okay when I told him he would have sleep over with Daddy on the weekends. I reassured him that Daddy wasn't going anywhere. Even though this break up was killing me I had to be strong for my baby.