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     five days; the agonizing amount of time i had to wait to see josh. im trying not to get too impatient, after all, i do get to see him while none of his other followers do. he said he had something important to tell me when we meet, i wonder what?

     i don't know what's worse to be honest; the impatience to meet him or the anxiety telling me i wasn't good enough for him. it was a lot easier to ignore those feelings when the meetup wasn't official, but now it's eating at my insides. regardless, i won't let myself back down from such a wonderful situation. i wouldn't do that to josh.