that is wild patrick! ; misc.

x. me

it's no secret that i have no self esteem, self loathing should be a personality trait, and i make too many self deprecating jokes

i lack confidence, even if i make it seem like i'm overly confident. i suppose i am just a good actor

i don't care about many things anymore, and my answer to 99% of questions is "i don't care." however, my anxiety makes me worry about everything; from the way i dress to the sound of my voice to the way my hair falls. it sucks

but, these past few days, i have not looked at myself and wanted to vomit. it's odd and i'm sure it will not last, though that doesn't mean i can't enjoy it while it does

so while i'm living in this sort've confidence, i thought i would show you all my face, that way you can know me on an even more personal level

here are a few of my most recent selfies;

i'm not sure what i looked like in your head, if i even looked like anything at all

regardless, here i am. this is me. the author.