Demi Imagines

Feel Again

sad one bc I'm so fucking stressed :)))))

kinda trigger warning

You're in your bathroom...

You stare at your reflection, and you can barely recognize the person in the mirror. A month ago, you would've smiled and appreciated how nice you look, but not today. Suddenly, everything that you used to like looks horrible in your eyes. Not to mention how you're stressed out of your mind. It's like you're going through your days out of your body. You feel numb.
Anything to feel.
You open up the cabinet and look for some new razors, but no matter how hard you look, you can't find anything.
You let out an agitated noise, and you slam the cabinet door. Looking around the bathroom, your eyes fall on the razor by the bath. It's not new, but it's not that old, either.
You don't even realize what you're doing until you're holding the razor in your hand. Time seems to stop as you stare at the small object in your hand. It's like you're underwater, sounds dulled as you remove the blade, letting it rest in your open palm.
You stare at it. You keep staring at it until your eyes start to burn.
"Babe?" You hear your girlfriend's voice, and you surface. Time resumes, and you can breathe again. The blade clatters to the ground along with the empty razor.
"Demi," you breathe, spinning around and practically crashing into her arms.
"What were you doing?" She's about to cry, and it hurts your heart to think that you did this to her.
"I'm sorry," you say, your voice shaking as you bury your face in her shoulder.
"Were you trying to hurt yourself?" she whispers, and you feel something wet on your shoulder. She's crying. Her arms around you tighten.
"I don't know," you admit. "It felt like," you breathe. "someone else." You close your eyes. "Someone else was doing it."
She chokes back a sob, and a tear slips down your cheek. You stay like that for a while, and eventually, like sand falling through a hourglass, you feel yourself return to your body. Like a rush of air being drawn in by a vacuum, your spirit—your soul returns. You're yourself again. The spell's broken, and you can feel again.
"Don't give such a little thing such power," she whispers, and you nod wordlessly. "I love you."
"I love you, too."

A/N
idk this kinda made me feel better
I'm so fucking stressed bc of school and other shit and ugh ugh ugh I thought we were over this ffs now I'm just pissed