Double Or Nothing (Sequel To Double Standards Part 2)

What To Do

Miri

Two months had passed since my Pape had been shot and everything was back to normal. Mom was back home and her and Pape couldn't keep their hands off one another. Demarco and Sam was back on good terms and he no longer tried to rule her life. I don't know if it was because he loved her to much to do that or he was terrified of her. Samantha did put a beating on his ass and belongings, which I thought was hilarious.

As for me and Cole we are doing great for now. With everything that's happened lately I haven't kept up with my period. Yes, I know birth control can ease my periods but I've been feeling extra sleepy, certain foods that I love turn my stomach, and I've gotton sick a few mornings. On lunch break at school I walked to a nearby drug store and purchased a pregnancy test. I waited for everyone to go to sleep at night and I went to the bathroom.

After using it I placed the test on the counter awaiting the results. My nerves were in shambles and all I could hear was Cole saying we can't have a baby yet. If I was pregnant would he leave me or demand I terminate it. There's no way I could kill my baby, that's not even a option. I was so scared to loose Cole.

Working up the nerve I looked at the test. All I could do was just stare at the result. I'm pregnant, Cole's going to leave me, what am I to do, Pape will kill Cole and I both, mom will be so disappointed, Dem will just be the asshole he is. Sinking down to the bathroom floor I wept endlessly. I got no sleep that night and forced myself to get ready for class.

Usually I'm very dressy but today I slipped on yoga pants and a tank. No makeup and threw my hair in a pony. As I entered the kitchen my mom rushed to me and felt my forehead. "Baby are you okay? You don't look well".

"I'm fine mom, I just didn't sleep well".

Pape joined us and suggested I stay home and rest. Shaking my head no I fought to hold back my tears when all I wanted to do was be enfolded in my parents arms. Before they could say more Cole entered to take me to school. Taking one look at me he basically said exactly what my parents said. Getting frustrated I grabbed my bags and headed to the door.

Once in Cole's car he looked at me. "You sure your okay baby girl? Should I take you to the doctor"

Fear seized my chest. If he took me he would surely find out my condition. "No" I screeched out then busted into tears.

"Miri baby, you have me concerned. Talk to me baby. You know you can tell me anything".

Not this I thought. You'll hate me and the baby once you find out. I'm going to be a single mom. I blame myself. I should have been more responsible. It had to happen that night at his house. The day before he took me to get birth control. Oh he's going to be so mad at me. Noticing him looking at me I said. "Really I'm fine. Just didn't sleep well. There's nothing to talk about".

Pulling up at school he leaned over and hugged me. "You sure baby?  I hate leaving you like this".

"I'm fine Cole. Just tired".

"Okay if you say so. Call me if you need me. I love you baby girl".

Giving him a quick kiss I stepped out. My mind was everywhere and I couldn't concentrate on anything the professor was discussing. During lunch I grabbed a table outside and sat numbly nibbling my sandwich which I didn't even want. Lost in thought I never noticed when Seth sat down beside me.

"What's bugging you sweetie? You doing okay?"

Seth tryed to talk to me all the time but I always respected Cole's wishes and steered clear of him, but today I needed someone to confide in. Someone other than family who wouldn't loose their mind at my news. Tears welled up in my eye's.

"Mirimosa, love, what's wrong? Is there something I could do?"

"Can you keep a secret Seth?"

"Of course".

I needed to get this off my chest and talk about it. Share it with someone. "I'm pregnant".

"Oh, geez, wow, congratulations".

"Thanks". I said in a tiny voice.

"So I take it that this isn't great news?"

"For me it is but my boyfriend is against having kids right now. I'm afraid he'll leave me or demand that I get rid of it".

"Miri he'd be crazy to let you go. If you need any help I'm here. You could even crash at my place if you needed to get away. Your beautiful Miri and I'd take care of you both".

"Oh no, thanks Seth but I stay with my parents".

It was almost time to head back to class and as I stood up he did to and placed his arms around me in a hug.

"Remember I'm here if you need me".

Before I could reply I saw Seth's body fly into the air and land hard on the ground. Turning to see what happened I saw Cole attacking Seth.

Cole was on top of him ramming his fist into his face while yelling. "Never put your hands on her. She is mine. I'll kill you".

Screaming I ran over and tried to pull Cole from Seth. "Cole please stop, it's not what you think. Please".

Eventually Cole let Seth go but only because he had knocked him out. His green eye's glared at me with raw fury. He stared to walk off and I had to run to keep up with him. "Cole please listen. It's not what you think".

We reached his car and I climbed in the passenger seat. "Miri get out. Its to dangerous for me to be near you right now".

"Please baby listen. You don't understand".

"Miri get the fuck out of my car now. I don't want to hear your sorry excuse for hugging up with another man. Get. Your. Whore. Ass. Out. Now".

"Cole you know I love you and would never do that. You must listen to me".

"Fuck you Mirimosa. We are done, finished, over. I should have known better than to fuck with you".

Crying hysterically I gripped his arm and tried to hug him. "You don't mean that Cole. Your just mad right now. I need you so much, more than you could ever know. I've got to tell you something then it will all make sense Olive".

"Fuck you Miri. Get out of my car before I put you out. We are done".

He pulled my arms from around him, leaned over and opened my door and proceeded to push me out as I begged and pleaded for him to hear me out. Once he had me out he shut the door and sped off. I stood there weeping as I felt my heart being ripped from my chest. I walked and walked and walked. I didn't know what to do. I hurt so bad.

I couldn't go home in this condition because my parents would question me to death and then Pape would be on the war path. I never felt so alone in my life. I eventually wondered in well after midnight. My body was sore from the constant walking, I was hungry but didn't care to eat. I just wanted to go to sleep and never wake up. I curled into myself as I tryed to ignore the cramps I started feeling in my lower abdomen.