Sebastian Stan ✖️Oneshots✖️

Don't Leave...Wouldn't Dream of it: (Bucky Barnes)

A/n: Hey dudes! so I've had a recent obsession with the song The Night We Met by Lord Huron, I then thought it might be cute to do a fluffy Oneshot with Bucky and the Reader. Now I know what you're thinking, the picture above looks pretty smutty but that's not the case, it actually represents an image of Bucky hugging the reader after a panic attack/nightmare. I actually made that edit so I'm pretty proud of it :D Any who, Enjoy guys and leave a comment below on what you thought of it.
Peace ✌🏻

Warnings: Fluff af, Language , PTSD nightmare.

Song Inspiration ~ The Night We Met by Lord Huron

{Note: I suggest listening to the song above as you read, it will make you cry at the cuteness!}

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Bucky's POV:

My past isn't something I'm proud of. I've done somethings that I honesty should have been persecuted for a long time ago. And there was a time when I was close to that point, I had accepted death and I was ready to move on in death...but she saved me.

I wanted to go under Kyro, to be locked away to my icy confinement until they found a cure. But she said otherwise. My (Y/n) (Y/l/n). My savior. She fought me over going under and as stubborn as I was I wasn't giving in, of course neither was she. She just wouldn't except the fact of me not wanting to live, she said it was selfish and inhumane. And at the time I didn't agree but I do now.

~Flashback~

"James Buchanan Barnes. If you go through with this I promise you that I won't be here when you wake up." She said sternly as she crossed her arms and furrowed her eyebrows at me. I sat there and let her words set in for a moment. I hopped off of the table and hugged her tight to my bruised up body, my soul flesh arm wrapping around her waist. She sighed softly and wrapped her arms around my frame, cradling me in her arms. "Okay Doll, I won't go under.." she kissed my cheek and ran her fingers gently through my hair to calm me down. "Good." she replied softly. I stayed there in her embrace for a moment before my eyes became watery. "(Y/n)?" I choked out. "Yes baby?" She asked as she pulled away only to cup my cheeks in her soft hands. "D-Don't Leave.." I said as a few tears slipped down my cheeks to which she wiped them away softly and kissed my forehead. "Wouldn't Dream of it."

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And those were the words that woke me up. From then on I looked at life differently, I wanted to live and prosper instead of become worse. I wanted to for her..

She deserves Way better than me but, she tells me constantly that I will always be more than enough for her that if she ever had to live in a world without me that she wouldn't want to live there at all. Even when we fight she and I both can't stay away from each other more than ten minutes, it hurts to even think that we'd have to be apart.

~Flashback~

"I can't always be here Buck! The team needs someone who they can rely on to do their runs here in New York!" She finally snapped. "Tony can handle them! I don't want you putting yourself at risk like that!" I snapped back. "You really think Tony is going to do a damn thing!? He's to busy putting a kid from Queens at risk and drinking his sorrow away daily! Steve has no one else Bucky!" She looked at me like I was one of the others, that look of disappointment and rage settled into her features. "Fine then! Excuse me for caring!" I was getting more angry even though I knew she was right. "There's caring then there's smothering!" She held her head in her hands and looked away from me like looking at me was making her stomach ache. "Maybe I should go.. I really think its best." She said softer yet still angry. "Then there's the damn door!" I said as I turned my back towards her. She snapped her head up at me and looked at me with tears in her eyes "Fine! I see this is the thanks I get for ever keeping your ass alive!" She stormed out of our apartment and out into the cold night air.

It had been ten minutes. I couldn't sit there anymore. I grabbed a coat and ran down the stairs and out to where I know she'd be. I ran all the way to the park, running directly to the exact bench to where we met. And there she was. sitting Indian style on the cold bench with her face in her hands as she wept heavily. I went over to her and stood in front of her as my eyes watered through my lashes and spilled down my cheeks. "(Y/n)?" I croaked out softly. She looked up through puffy eyes and jumped up, wrapping me in the tightest hug ever as she cried into my chest. "Please. please....Don't Leave." She sniffled and held me tighter to her. "W-Wouldn't Dream of it.." 

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I couldn't ever bring myself to that point, leaving her would kill me. No matter what I've done in my life I would never forgive myself if I ever thought of leaving her. That's probably why I worried myself so much that I fell asleep waiting for her to come home.

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(Y/n)'s POV:

It was late when I had finished my run for the team. Really late. I rolled into the parking garage at about 3am and carried my sore ass up the stairs because of course the elevator was broken! Six flights of stairs later and I was so tired that I almost fell asleep in the stair well. I trudged on and climbed another four flights until I was finally at the door of Bucky and I's shared apartment. I unlocked the door and decided diner could wait until breakfast so I just went and got a shower.

I showered in the guest rooms bathroom so I wouldn't wake Bucky up, I knew he was a light sleeper when I wasn't home. I finished quickly because of how tired I was and changed into a pair of shorts and one of Bucky's shirts. I was towel drying my hair when I heard a stomach churning scream come from our bedroom. I dropped my towel and ran into our bedroom to find Bucky screaming in pain as he huddled himself in a ball on our bed with his head in his hands. I rushed over and did what I used to do when he'd have one of these, I ran my fingers through his hair and said softly. "Sargent, wake up. It's all okay out here with me."

Bucky immediately woke up and gasped for air as he looked up at me with tear-filled, puffy eyes. "(Y/n)?" He asked hoarsely. I nodded and helped him up in bed easily. "It's me Bucky." I cooed softly as I moved some hair from his sweat covered brow. He hugged me tightly, his head resting on my chest as he wrapped his arms around my waist. I combed through his hair, taking a hair tie from my wrist and loosely putting his hair in a bun to cool the sweat from his neck. "It's all gonna be okay Bucky, I'm right here." My voice was soft to calm his trembling form wrapped around me.

"(Y/n)?" He asked softly after he had calmed down. "Yes Bucky?" I replied as I kissed along his neck softly, just loving on him to keep him calm. "Don't Leave" He said sleepily. "Wouldn't Dream of it." With that I laid down with him and he cuddled close to me letting me be the big spoon. I held him like that all night as we slept peacefully.

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I cried while I wrote this 😂 it's just so cute!! Anyway, Guys I entered my book into the 2017 Watty's!! Please vote like crazy lol thank you guys for all the reads/comments/votes and I know we've passed 5k DON't WORRY I'm doing something special for that 😉
Peace my dudes ✌🏻