Welcome to my life and my thoughts. Poems book 2.

I'll be me... Who or whatever that is.

Wow, it's been months I'm certain since I've updated or been on wattpad! I've still been writing poems though, they help me express my feelings and all together just help! I've been so busy lately, exams, revision and as a whole my life recently keeps being turned upside down... 

This was a very very serious and low point I've had recently, I've ended up battling this even though I know this is not the real me... I don't know anymore

From this day on I'll be me,

Stand up for myself,

Let the true me out for you to see,

Maybe you'll end up hating me,

Maybe you won't,

Either way this is me,

You either accept me or you don't,

I'm not right,

I know that,

So I'm making a change,

Maybe I'll end up looking better,

Maybe I'll end up worse,

But I'm doing this for me,

I don't want to eat anymore,

It makes me feel sick,

And I hate myself afterwards,

I don't want to hurt anymore,

So I take control,

I don't want to cry anymore,

So I don't show emotion,

This is what I need,

Maybe one day you'll know why,

The truth,

And not someone else's twisted truth,

But for now I need to shut everything out,

Everyone out,

I don't want to end up like I was last time,

So I need to be alone,

Get through this alone,

Again,

You weren't there the first time,

And you're still not here the second time,

I've given up waiting for you,

I can do this alone,

I just need to be this 'me'.