Welcome to my life and my thoughts. Poems book 2.

Saved your life.

I saved my best friend's life, not that she thanks for me for it. Maybe one day she will, but for now I've got to keep her strong, keep her moving on and keep her as happy as possible. I nearly lost her. I now realise just how much speaking up and saying something can make a change, after all it stopped her from overdosing and ending her life.

I had no choice,

I had to say something,

I'd feel guilty forever if I hadn't said something because I care,

Jess, I care a lot,

You're the person I turn to about everything,

The one who knows the most about me,

The one who always knows what to say,

And always manages to smile, even with everything going on,

I tell youe verything,

I trust you with everything,

Please still trust me,

You mean a lot to me,

You were there when no one else was,

I couldn't bare to lose you,

Even whether you do still trust me,

I'll always be sorry,

And I won't see you much anymore,

I've put you in that place you'll be going to soon,

I had to,

I hate myself for it,

But I'd hate myself even more if I didn't say anything,

I couldn't have it all on me,

I'd blame myself forever and hate myself forever,

I'd be blamed for it all,

And if you had died how would I be able to live with that?

I saved your life,

Whether you wanted me to or not,

I had to save you,

Just know I did it because I care a lot,

You mean a lot to me,

We've got through so much together,

We can still keep getting through,

I'll say that classic line,

"It'll all be ok",

Even though we both know it won't be,

Not for sure anyway,

We can do this,

Stay strong together <3