affected // j.b.

Jealousy

I haven't updated literally in lyke months; I promise to make this fanfic better I re-read my story and I honestly dislike my fanfic but you guys say you like it?? Thanks but I'm gonna try to make it better and less cheesy

Songs of the chapter -

Cinema - Benni Benassi (skrillex remix)

Find you - Zedd

The Only Reason - 5SOS

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Kendall's POV

The car ride is quiet, no one dares break the silence, once we get to Selena's I am the first out the car I go to my guest room I shut the door behind me not wanting anyone to come in I decide to text Niall, he is friends with Harry so he most likely knows about it 'hey Ni' he doesn't reply right away I put my phone to charge I lay on, my bed watching some old movie, I hear some talking from downstairs sooner or later my eyes close I doze off into a deep sleep

When I wake up I hear giggling and laughing damn it's too early to be laughing I check my phone it's 1 in the afternoon oh. I go into the closet finding some dark wash skinny jeans, a oversized sweater, I go into the bathroom doing the normal routine I leave my hair down pinning back my bangs, I swipe a few slashes of mascara, I put on socks and my vans the usual attire; it gets boring I grab my phone stuffing it in my back pocket

I walk out to find Justin's door slightly open, I peek in because that's where the giggling is coming from, my heart drops I know me and Justin will never be in love, we won't marry, we are just teenagers having fun. But seeing this. Makes me feel like he took my heart and tore it in front of my face. He's leaning in to diamond, close to kissing. Tears run down my face I wipe the tears, I'm done.

i glide downstairs avoiding everyone and everything, I shut the front door behind me, I hear Selena calling my name but I don't bother, I call the closest person to me, Niall. He agrees to come pick me up telling me I'm in no condition to be walking by myself

As soon as he pulls up I climb in the car and cry into his chest I tell him everything "he's not worth your tears Kendall" he whispers wiping my tears "you're better than that" I nod cleaning myself up "do you wanna hang out today? We could go to the mall" he suggests letting go of me, "sure it's felt like forever since we have hung out" I. Check the mirror my eyes are puffy, but besides that you can't really tell I've been crying my eyes out

By the time we get to the mall which is about a 30 minute drive my eyes aren't so puffy, we get something to eat, then we go to a few stores once we go into wet seal they have friendship bracelets i laugh at how cheesy it is to have matching bracelets, but that's why I love them I beg Niall to wear them he claims they're girly, I protest pointing to the blue material he sighs agreeing I make him put it on right away, he helps me put mine on, by the time we get back to the car it is 4:00 he drives me back to Selena's I force him to come in and say hi

I walk in first they're all sitting on the couch Justin, Diamond, Selena, Chaz, Nolan, and Ryan they all look towards the door once we walk in, I take a deep breath reminding myself to not cry or cause a scene, "we should hang out soon Ken" he smiles, his mouth comes to my ear whispering "if anything happens call me" I nod smiling then hugging him and waving goodbye I close the door looking back at them "what was that about" Selena questions

"Nothing" I assure her walking upstairs, I hear footsteps behind me, I ignore them knowing it's Justin, I open the door sitting on the bed staring at the wall he sits next to me quiet "am I not good enough" the words come out before I can process it

"I..w-what?" he runs his hand through his hair, "you heard me" I snap not making eye contacts "why would you say that?" he asks full of curiosity "don't act like you didn't fucking kiss her I know you did" I shout letting a tear escape, he looks angry but most of all scared

"I fucking believed you, I believed all the bull shit you said. damn I knew you were gonna find a way to hurt me, why couldn't you just break up with me first, I believed in us, I thought we could work, I was wrong I don't want to see you ever again, leave me the fuck alone" I shout trying to push him he's speechless "but I love you" his voice cracks "if you loved me you wouldn't have kissed her, we are reckless teenagers, we don't know what love is, love is suppose to be happy, and guess what, I'm not happy, I want you out of my life, you always find a way to break me, and I'm done" I cry, he thinks for a moment just staring at me, "you're right I don't love you, in fact I never liked you" those words that came out of his mouth, broke me, but now that I know I won't ever speak to him again.

Selena is at the door way, her jaw practically lying on the ground "make him get out" I tell her pushing Justin once again "leave me the hell alone don't you ever talk to me again" Selena escorts them out I can hear them talking through the door

"What the hell were you thinking? Telling her that, we all know you have feelings for her what's up with you" Selena whispers but loud enough I can hear, "I don't like her" he repeats, it almost sounds like he's trying to make himself believe it. Selena comes in moments later I lay in her arms crying for what seems like hours, "I'm going back home, I don't belong here" I announce out of no where she stares almost like scanning my emotions to see if I truly do want to go

"What Justin did, surprises me, I don't even know what to say about him.." she says

"doesn't surprise me" I sound like a zombie I quickly get up packing my little bag, I walk out the room to Tyler's guest room I pack his few stuff, I take out my phone texting him we are going back home, he asks to stay at his friends the whole weekend I agree, who knows what mom and dad are doing

I take our bags downstairs, diamond is gone but Justin, Chaz, Nolan, and Ryan are still here, they all stare Chaz and Ryan stand come to me "you're leaving already?" Chaz pouts I nod hugging them, "I'm going back home, I won't be back for a while, I love you guys" I tell them I see Justin's head snap up when he hears what I said but go back to talking to Nolan

Why is it always me?

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