Heart: Under Construction

Exes

3 months...

Tatlong buwan ng nagpapaka-tatay si Elli kay Bellamy. And to be honest di ko alam kung saan s'ya humuhugot ng oras para doon. I mean we're finally business partners.

Katatapos lang ng grand opening namin last week pero nagawa n'ya pa rin i-celebrate namin yung 3 months ni Bellamy.

Ako halos nakakatulugan ko magpa-breast feed kay Bellamy. Nagi-guilty tuloy ako kasi mas magulang pa si Elli kaysa sa akin.

Ang swerte namin mag-ina because we have him. We're friends now, kahit madalas akong tanungin ni Dave kung ano ang real score sa aming dalawa.

I just appreciate his efforts na maging Tatay ni Bellamy. At syempre alam ko rin na talagang si Bellamy ang priority naming dalawa. So no biggies. Kung magkakaroon man kami ng something we will know when the right time comes.

"Lalim naman ng iniisip mo" tumabi s'ya sa'kin dito sa couch, habang napapa-breast feed kay Bellamy. Ito pa isang concern nila, sobrang komportable ko raw na ganito. Ano bang mali? Hindi naman s'ya yung binebreast feed ko diba? Nakikita lang n'ya and so?

Magpapaka-dalaga pa ba ako sa kanya? He was there noong manganak ako, sa totoo lang wala na rin naman akong itatago sa kanya.

And he's fine with it.

"Are you sure you're fine with this set-up?" I suddenly asked.

Kumunot naman yung noo n'ya but he smiled pa rin "Of course, are you?" He returned the question.

"Sa akin wala ng mawawala" I paused and study his face na nakangiti pa rin "I suddenly felt guilty, kasi feeling ko inagaw ko ang pagkabinata mo, hindi mo naman kailangan akuin pati ang resposibilidad sa pagpapalaki kay Bellamy, sapat na binigay mo yung pangalan mo sa kanya" I said almost choking hindi ko alam bakit ako naiiyak.

He held my free hand and kissed Bellamy's forehead "I looked at you with so much respect, I admired you so much so don't you ever think that way again"

Wala na nalaglag na talaga yung mga luha ko sa sinabi n'ya. Pinunasan n'ya 'yon tsaka n'ya hinalikan yung ilong ko.

Gosh I can smell his scent. This is the most intimate moment sa aming dalawa.

Yes we were living under the same roof pero magkahiwalay yung kwarto namin. And we were never this close ngayon lang.

Paminsan- minsan hinahawakan n'ya yung kamay ko kapag namamasyal kaming tatlo. Pero ngayon iba, he's too ugh sweet?

"W-what was that for?" I bravely asked. Ayoko talaga bigyan ng meaning pero mas okay na rin sigurong linawin ko diba? Baka kasi umasa ako or assuming lang.

Hindi n'ya pa rin binibitawan yung mukha ko "I like you"

When was the last time na kinilig ako? I don't really remember, kasi feeling ko mas kinilig ako ngayon? Simpleng I like you palang yan! Ano ba!

"You what?" I asked even though mas malinaw pa sa crystal clear water kong nadinig, I just need confirmation! Ang arte ko nakakainis, I was biting my lower lip na feeling ko dudugo na any second.

"I like you... so much" may so much pa  wala na, hindi ko na napigilang ngumiti. Bumigay na.

"Sigurado ka?" Syempre pakitpot tayo.

"Never been this sure" sabi n'ya sabay kindat, My God, My Heart, My soul just left my body. "So do you like me too?" He asked seriously.

"Pag-iisipan ko" I teased, he groaned tsaka n'ya kinuha si Bellamy na kanina pa gising.

"Bellamy, tell your Mom to like me back too" kinausap n'ya na para bang sasagot yung bata.

Kumapit ako sa braso n'ya habang kalong-kalong n'ya si Bellamy. I rested my head in his shoulder.