Heart: Under Construction

Truth is

A year without a word from him and now kaharap ko s'ya only to be thrown off harsh words, maybe he really lost his memories pero hindi ko alam damay din pala ang ugali?

I'm just asking him what happened, hindi naman n'ya kailangan akong saktan pa ng paulit-ulit.

Maybe meeting him again wasn't a good ide after all.

"Look..." he paused trying to remember my name.

"Isabelle" I continued.

"Right, Isabelle, I'm really sorry, pero I'm married now, kaya kung ex man kita or anything, hindi na talaga tayo pwede tsaka mahal ko ang asawa ko kay tigilan mo na ako" sinabi m'ya na para bang ganon lang kadali sa akin ang kalimutan s'ya.

Nawalan lang ng memorya nagpakasal na sa iba? Aren't he suppose to find who he is? Or where his family's whereabouts? Ni hindi man lang ba n'ya hinanap?

"I'm not trying to take you away from your wife" ouch, ako sana yon eh "I just want to know why did you end up losing your memory?" I'm sure kwinento nung misis n'ya sa kanya kung paano s'ya natagpuan.

"I...sabi ng asawa ko I was running away from someone kaya ako nagpakasal ng bigla sa kanya, but after registering our marriage I had and accident" what? That...that doesn't make any sense bakit mo ako tatakbuhan? And why would he marry someone else?

I kept my mouth shut.

"I'm sorry, you can stop loving me now, dahil wala na akong balak makipagbalikan sa mga ex ko" dugtong n'ya "I hope that explains everything, I don't want to see you again" with that he left me dumbfounded.

Ang nakakatawa nasasaktan ako pero hindi ko magawang umiyak.

Ang lakas kasi makagago ng rason n'ya. And who the hell did he marry? Parang may mali sa mga sinabi n'ya kay Elli.

"Belle!" I saw James running towards me.

"Paano?" N'ya nalaman na nandito ako? I didn't tell anyone na makikipagkita ako kay Elli dahil lahat sila against sa idea na 'yon. Even Tita Kyla asked me to move on already.

"I..." he scratch his nape "I just know, sinundan kita sorry"

"Gusto mo ng ice cream?" I suddenly want an ice cream.

"More like you want it" hinila n'ya ako papunta sa kotse n'ya. Tsaka kami nag-punta sa isang ice cream parlour.

"Earl grey for you and Matcha green tea flavor for me" sabi n'ya na parang nagpapa-cute. Infairness for the first time today, I smiled genuinely.

"Thank you" he said and reached for my free hand.

"Hindi ba dapat ako ang nagsasabi n'yan?" Hinayaan ko lang s'yang hawakan yung kamay ko. Magkatabi kasi kami so I leaned my head to his shoulder.

"You smile today because of me, hindi mo alam kung gaano ako kasaya" Inangat n'ya yung kamay namin na magkahawak ang kissed it.

Kaya ko ba? Kaya ko pa bang magmahal ulit?

He wants me to stay for tonight kaya naman pumayag ako. Besides nasa London sila Bellamy, treat daw ni Ninang as early birthday gift sa kanya. Pinili kong hindi sumama dahil kay Elli.

"Shower ka na, I'll be downstairs" sabi n'ya, ugh I forgot how he's so workaholic.

Pero ewan ko something inside me wants to be with him so "No" he halted.

"Ha?" Lumingon s'ya sa akin.

"Stay with me, please?" I used my puppy eyes.

"Okay, bibilinan ko lang si Drew I'll be back I promise" I nodded like a kid and took a shower.