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||Worst||

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by MsGrotesque

by MsGrotesque

Everything I feel, is a contradiction to itself and I dont know where's the truth.

>"Worst"<

I wanted to cry like baby
Because I can't handle things with enthusiasm.
But I am thinking of the thought
That if I cry
There's nothing gonna change.
So I hide.

Insecurities come gushing throughout my body.
I can't stop comparing myself to others!

Hell, why I am doing this to myself?
I should be proud of myself
Because I'm on the top.
It means I am smart.
I am intelligent.

But why I kept on ranting?
Because I can't do what I wanted to do. My mind is trapping me inside.
They've trapped me with dragons and devils that are eating even a flesh of mine.

Playing with my friends
Reading and writing without having hangover
And a dilemma about that freaking school activities.

Studying affects my writing skills.
I am no longer a writer
-- a negative thinker.
I cant feel the way I feel myself before. Such that as
To express yourself
The emotions you wanted to release.
But today
Even a single world would fail to express the whole out of me.

My heart is desolated. I can't withstand.

It really is a difficult ride to change and cope up
Because I am the controller of my mind.
I doon't know
But I'm getting much worst than ever.
I am getting numb by the fact that I am not that great.

Help me get out of this messy world.

Where are you Anpanman?
---I'll wait for you.

Words are the most destructive weapons. Words only have as much power as you give them.-MsGrotesque