Among Others

Stupid // 1

Mostly in Keith's point of view, but other's may come. Now it's Keith's.

O O O

Oh, I screwed up bad.

Or not, it's mostly how you look at the situation. I shouldn't have screwed up, and I probably didn't, but in some way I still did. If I changed my set of thinking I would most likely love this kind of attention, aspire it.

But I hate the attention and my set of mind does it too. I hate being in the center because that's where everything can happen, where anyone can observe you. I would prefer to be the observer only, for a change, but absolutely not be observed by someone else. And if glaring daggers from corners is the deal, I want it. I want it more than ever, just like always. I want everyone away from me and to mind their own goddamn business.

The whole society seems to find it eminently hard and I have no clue why. But then again, that goes for me too. Observer and all, but doesn't that mean I'm forgetting to mind my own business too? Or am I an exception?

Absolutely not, and that's what frustrates me.

Screw up, screw up, screw up. I can hear the words tap at my head and crawl up my back, and I clutch at my arms until my nails seems to dug in my skin. Maybe if I press my body hard enough against the wall I can melt in with it and never be seen again? It would be like poof Keith's gone, and nobody would notice.

But except they will notice since now because I freaking screwed up!

"The anger doesn't suit you", Lance calls out to me from across the so called 'living room' and slump down at the couches with his lanky long legs nonchalantly stretched in front of him, a smirk tugging at the corners of his mouth. "But you always look angry so then you always look ugly."

Shiro shots him a glare from somewhere at the front and Pidge just rolls her eyes, being my everyday mood. I know Shiro's about to defend me, but I don't want him to.

So I defend myself.

"And being flirty doesn't suit you, but that explains why none of the ladies wants you", I retort and cross both my arms and legs as I press my back so hard against the wall that I can feel the metal surface cold against my spine, my black t-shirt not providing much warmth whatsoever. I wonder if I could take up my dagger from my pocket, as a sign for him to shut the hell up. Hopefully he would get the idea that I would gladly throw the knife at his head if he insults me again.

He doesn't seem to get the idea as I scowl at him when he abruptly stands up so fast it would even make me dizzy. He has his fist clutched at his sides and his eyes narrows at me. Pidge peeks up from her computer besides him and I can't recall if she's snickering at my face expression or Lance idiocy. Maybe both.

"You." He dramatically points at me. "Take that back."

"I could", I sigh and shrug. "But you would still remember it." I furrow my eyebrows. "Or would you forget like the last moment we had."

"Dios mios!" He exclaims and throws up his arms in some kind of surrender excepts he's far from giving up. He turns to Pidge who seems to want to have nothing to do with this pitiful bickering. "I can't with him right now", Lance says to her and she simply ignores him. He turns to me again and his face looks wrinkled in irritation. "Take you stupid mullet-head back to reality and think straight!"

Think straight. If only it would be that easy. Lately I'm thinking as straight as a freaking rainbow. Making bad decisions, and overall thinking in a kind of haze. Lance doesn't disperse the haze in some way, which exasperate me deeply. I want everyone gone to leave me alone with my thoughts for a moment.

"Just shut up for a second, and I would think straight as ever", I fire back and pull away from the wall's grasp of me just to mimic Lance position with his hand at his sides and his head high.

I'm hungry, tired and irritated as ever, but mostly disappointed in myself. I promised myself I would try to blend in with everything and nothing just to make me disappear from the others. And most importantly to stop argue with Lance. Which results in me doing the complete opposite.

"I'll talk as much as I want, and if that means annoying you, I'll gladly do it all the time." Lance runs his hand through his brown short hair, frustrated, and cross his arms like I did mere seconds ago. "Talking about bonding moment yada, yada, yada. Well obviously it wasn't important enough for me to remember it."

I feel something twitch in my stomach, and I hope it's just because of the hunger. But I know it isn't. It's something more painful, more like a pang of some emotion.

I chose to just push it aside for the moment and I know I won't try to examine it sooner. Never, actually.

"The only reason for you to forget it is because your simply stupid", I say and try to ignore the pang that has gotten up to my chest now.

"Enough", Shiro mutters tiredly, not even trying to raise his voice.

"Well, ah... you're... eh..." Lance frantically looks around the big room as if he could find a possible good comeback hiding in the corners. He averts his eyes to me again, lips pressed as a thin line before shouting. "You're stupider! Ha! Take that."

Pidge rolls her eyes again and the sound of her fingers rapidly typing in her computer fills the momentary silence.

"No ones stupider than you, Lance. You know that. That may be the only thing you know because you're so stupid."

"Oh, screw you, Keith! Your emo might spread, so why won't you just back off?"

"Enough!" Shiro shouts and the whole world seems to hold it's breath. If Shiro screams at us it must be because our annoyance level has reached its maximum. You don't hear him this angry often, and it's terrifying.

Lance is frozen in place, looking at a fuming Shiro in horror. Pidge has stopped writing, pushing up her glasses and scooting further away from the source of the apprehension in the atmosphere. I try to be apathetic and keep my face neutral.

Hunk has just appeared at the entre and his eyes are widely open as he looks over to us, hesitantly opening his mouth.

"Dinner's ready."

I escape from the whole situation and quickly make my way to the dining hall to get this dinner over with.

O O O

First chapter done! Yay!

Of course my chapter will be longer than this but I had to start off with something short and could still attract your attention. I hope it did! It would be nice if you could leave friendly feedback on my story if you want, or simply comment.

See ya in the next chapter, hopefully!