voices | taegi [completed]

fifteen

— 3rd

tae's eyes flutter open as the rays of sunshine flood into his room.
invading his room and going against the glass of his window.
a smile makes its way onto his face, remembering the day that is today.

he turns to his left and is met with empty space.
his smile now vanished and a frown replaces it.
missing his boyfriend already, tae sits up and stretches.

"morning." tae mumbles to himself.

he beat up and makes his bed.
he checks his schedule and smiles.
an interview today, or rather a session with a radio station.

grabbing his towel, he goes into the bathroom.
tae moans softly as the warm water caresses his body.
his cuts hissing in pain but he doesn't care.
the voice in his head criticising him with passion.
tae, feeling all beaten up and insecure, feels tears welling up in his eyes at what the voices had said.

fucking worthless.

useless.

yoongi will leave you.

garbage.

good for nothing child.

cuts.
that's all he sees on his wrist, cuts.
and thick, crimson liquid, seeping out of the lines.

tae smiles crookedly at the art he has created.
placing a finger on his cuts, he traces them.
the grey head smiles, feeling accomplished.

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tae sighs happily at his outfit.
feeling love and warmth radiating from the oversized sweatshirt his mom had bought for him.
he ruffles his hair and steps out of his room.

tae frowns.
empty, the whole dorm was empty.
tae walks towards the dining room and his frown deepens.

"hello?" tae calls out.

already feeling left out and alone.
the voice in his head laughing and crackling evilly, enjoying the pain tae is going through.

"hyungs? ggukie?" tae squeaks out.

feeling tears staring to well up in his eyes.
of course he's used to feeling alone, but when his only family leaves him?
however, tae is scared out of his wits when he hears loud shouts from behind him.

"SURPRISE!" the boys shout, scaring tae.

tae blinks and shakes his head.
he turns around and his met with his members and big smiles on their faces.
a cake, streamers and confetti all around him.

"w-what?" tae whispers in confusion.

the boys chuckle. "happy birthday tae!"