My peotry

Slowly Breaking

Slowly breaking

They may break me

But It will not hurt

Unless they all see

What I am truly worth

I know I'm a major disappointment

And that I am a bad kid

But in the end i really don't care

Not even a little but.

Because in reality

We are all different

Wether it be in color or thought

As long as our attitude is 'decent'

I don't care if they hurt me

I will understand

I don't care if they like me

I am who I am

In all honesty I don't like myself either

I can't even look at my own reflection without crying

But it's okay because I promise

I will always keep smiling.

Nobody will notice how fake it is

Or how I really want to die

As long as I have a smile on my face

They will never realize.

That I am in pain

And I can't take it anymore

I want to die so slowly

While my wrists bleed out on the floor

Help me please I beg you

But all you do is laugh

No one truly understands me

In all honesty it's really sad.

How our eyes can be deceived

How our hearts can be guarded

How our wrists can be scared

How our relationships are parted

How when we take that leap,

Or those pills

The last cuts

Always a thrill

Then we regret

How we never got a goodbye

How we never told anybody

That 'my whole life was a lie'

I know I'm not alone

In this hell we call a world

So help me out here

Cause I'm hanging on by a cord

Tell me the truth

That if I ever do it

Will you care at all

Will you give a shit?

When I finally fall off the bridge

Or maybe slit my throat

Kick over the chair

When you discover my death note

Will you cry

Be in deep depression?

Or will you go on with life

Not making an impression?

Will you feel bad

How you never saw

Or will you be glad

That I'm finally gone

Tell me the cold hearted truth

Will you actually care

Or will you fake a smile like I once did

When I was still there?

I'm slowly breaking away

And all I need

Is for someone to say

I love you .. Please don't make yourself bleed.

Maybe, just maybe someday...

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So I was thinking .. Why the fuck am I here? I mean what the fuck did I do to get here in my life? I mean I haven't killed anybody or hurt anybody. Physically at least ... So what's my purpose here? I'm slowly breaking away an nobody gives a shit.. Whatever, maybe I'll let go and show ppl the monster inside. Then maybe I'll get some other emotion toward me besides hate..

Just a thought.