Steve x Reader & Bucky x Reader Imagines

Life Goes On (Bucky x Reader)

I know it's been a really long time since I've written for you guys, but I'm attempting to get back into the swing of things. This isn't really a happy imagine, as I said before I've still been in a kind of dark place inside my mind. I'm hoping that writing something like this will help me get out of this funk and hopefully start getting to everyone's requests. I was very hesitant to post this because of the main topic it involves. I also please ask that we do not argue on the other topic this imagine involves, there is already so much hate in the world, please don't bring it here as well. Only a few moments in this are kind of fluffy, other than that I ask that everyone please pay attention to the warnings. Hopefully my writing isn't too rusty. Don't worry, I did make a happy ending after all of this angst.

Warnings: language, violence, angst, rape and mentions of rape, brief talk of suicide, honestly, there's a lot, read at your own risk.

It was that time once again, time for you to dreadfully stop hitting the snooze button on your alarm, and start getting ready for work. Tony Stark's head assistant at the compound, not just for Tony, but for all of the Avengers, as well as personal assistant for one hero in particular. Glancing at your phone on the nightstand, you instantly saw his name pop up, bringing a smile to your otherwise dreaded morning routine.

"Good morning, doll! I have a surprise waiting for you in your office, really looking forward to our weekend together! See you soon!"

Yes, the metal armed super soldiers texts always left you giddy, and smiling like an idiot in the morning. Working for the Avengers has been your long term job for almost three years now, ever since the team got back together, and since day one there had always been something the two of you felt for each other. By year one, Barnes had finally built up the courage to ask you out, and now your two year anniversary was only a couple months away.

"See you soon James, I'm on my way now." You responded before grabbing your keys to leave, only to freeze when your phone went off again, this time from your friend.

"Hey y/n! Are we still on to party for my birthday tonight!? It'll be at my place!"

Shit... how could you forget your own friends birthday?

"You can bring Bucky! If you do can you bring Steve too?;) he's so cute, I'd love to steal a birthday dance!"

"I'll see if they want to go! I'm on my way to see them right now!" You responded before turning your phone on silent and driving to the compound, wondering how this conversation might go.

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"Well if it isn't my lovely assistant showing up to work thirty minutes late!" Tony smirked as he sarcastically clapped, following you to your office.

"Shut up Iron Ass, this is the first time in two years I've been late. People oversleep sometimes." You shot back as you began to unlock your office door.

"Relax, I'm just messing with you! I'm only here to film your reaction." He told you as he pulled out his phone.

"Reaction to wha-" you stopped, covering your mouth when you remembered Bucky telling you about a surprise in your office. When you looked inside you saw a beautiful array of candles, flowers, and flower peddles, leading to the man you loved, down on one knee with a ring in hand.

"It's about time, I've been like this since I texted you." He joked with his beautiful smile and slightly glossed eyes when he saw you begin to cry.

"I thought it was going to be pancakes or something small!" You laughed as you wiped away a tear.

"Well I'm sorry I'm not a pancake." He laughed. "And I know this isn't the most romantic place to ask this question, but it is to me. In this very room is where I first saw you, when I asked you out for the first time, our first kiss, where we would have had our first time together if we hadn't remembered there were cameras in here-"