LOST (btsxnamjoon) #bottomnamjoon

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hi I'm new to making these kinda fanfic and I love bts okay, this is only a fanfic other than the story and some of my oc characters bts are real people that should be protected and love. hope you guys enjoy don't forget to vote

WARNING

MAY CONTAIN ANGST, SMUT, BDSM, AT THE MIDDLE PART OF THE STORY

DONT LIKE DONT READ

YOU HAVE BEEN WARNED BY @JOONJOONIEXXX

It was a Friday night, the bangtan boys were practicing in bighit dance studio (I dont know if this really exist or not lol) and all of them were out of breath after practicing some of their song non stop. All of them were all exhausted from all of their practice, especially Namjoon he would always be so tired cause lack of sleep and stressed he pilled up inside him, but he held it for the Army, for himself and most especially his group.

with them he felt like he could accomplish anything as long as they have his back and theirs on his. But everything went downhill on that week.

Namjoon was schrooling down his twitter and saw comments about him but he wasnt looking at the good ones, oh no he was looking at all the hate comments that was sent to him

@chimchimlove

Omg look at all of them, well dont look at that namjoon guy he ruins the picture with his presence (*O*)

@bangtan4lifuu

+@chimchimlovec I know right, he should do us all a favor and leave while he hasnt embaresed himself enough lol dont ruin my bias image with your presence (*^*)

@namjoonie^^

Hey dont say anything bad about him, HE IS MY BIAS ٩(๑'^'๑)۶

@kookieistasty

Omg look at him he looks soo fat unlike kookie, he should just be a sumo with that body of his lol

@JINNIE23

Hahaha he should just leave before he mess my jinnie's handsome face lololol

he just kept schrolling down the comments section, he kept looking until a phone icon showed up on his phone showing the name Mom on the screen, he clicked answer and put the phone near his ear.

Namjoon: hi eomma

Mom: hello joonie..

Namjoon: whats wrong? you sound sad, is there something wrong?

Mom: Joonie... your dad h-he passed away last night, he was on his way to the house when a drunk truck driver passed a red light and hit him when he was crossing the street.. i-m soo sorry joonie honey she said trying not to sob, namjoon face was blank, he couldnt process what she just said

he stood up and he went to the toilet, and locked the door thankfully the other members didnt notice him slightly crying because they were still tired from practicing. He was in the toilet crying to his jacket to muffle the sound he was making, he then put the phone near his ears again

Namjoon: e-omma when is the funeral?

Mom: tomorrow, all of the family members will be there are you going to honey? she asked him with a faint voice he answered with a heavy heart.

Namjoon: im sorry mom but the last day of the concert is tomorrow afternoon and i cant just leave instantly, what will the boys think of this, there were silent until his eomma Yelled at him

Mom: SO THATS MORE IMPORTANT THAN YOUR FATHER HUH???!! DONT EVEN BOTHER TO SHOW UP LATER DAY, HECK DONT YOU DARE SHOW YOUR FACE HERE EVER AGAIN!! she said as she hung the phone, he had tears running down on his face until he heard a knock on the door

Jungkook: Hyung are you okay? we're starting the dance practice again, as soon as he heard that he turn on the water and washed his face, hoping they wouldn't notice his face was crying. he wiped his face with a towel that was beside the sink and he unlocked the door and walked out the door with a fake smile on his face

Namjoon: i'm okay kookie, lets go back to practice

Jungkook: Okay hyung, he said as he walks back to the other member with namjoon following him from behind, in his mind he just kept saying just be strong for the group namjoon, be the leader they want you to be, just hide your feelings for them, for your important peoples

When they were all packing their things and was going back home Namjoon told his manager Sejin about his situation

Sejin: Namjoon why dont you just take a break from the concert? Your emotionally unstable and that may effect the performance tomorrow, he said wit his arm crossing

Namjoon: but i-I dont want to disappoint the ARMY tomorrow, heck the other members has work hard enough that I dont have the heart to messed up the plans we already made, he said with a sad smile across his face

Sejin just sighed and as he was about to walk away, Namjoon pulled his arm and bowed to him

Namjoon: please dont tell the other members about my situation, it will only make them unfocus for the concert he said trying to held his tears, his manager stood there and pat his shoulder

Sejin: dont worry about it namjoonie ill keep this a secret, but I hope that you will tell them after the concert okay?, he said as he walked back to his studio

Namjoon can only held his tears from coming out of his eyes, he needed to be strong for the team because he was the leader and they are all hes got left. He looked back to see Hoseok hugging from behind

Hoseok: joonie lets go back home, we need our strength for the concert tomorrow he said smilling the brightest smile to the leader, namjoon smiled back to him and walked to the door seeing the other members are already asleep in the bighit van, he chuckled a bit and sat in the middle seat beside suga who was playing twitter on his phone, behind them was jimin, jungkook, and taehyung snoring loudly and suga was beside Jin who was driving the van.

Namjoons pov

We got home and went to our rooms. As soon as I returned to my room I quickly went to the bathroom and locked the door, I simply bended near the toilet and put 2 finger inside my mouth until I barfed a lot I didnt like doing this, but I wanted to be thin for the ARMY after I barfed I went and open the cabinet beside the mirror and took out a piece of blade and started to cut my wrist

One . tch

Two . H

Three.

Four..

And five.haaah

The blood was running down my arm, I hissed in pain as my hand begins to swollen up I then took a bandaed and rapped it around y arms after I disinfect it. I look over to the mirror and then I smiled

Namjoon: your happy namjoon, your happy ,he said as a tear ran down his face he quickly wipped it off and went back to his bed and went to sleep trying to forget about that heavy day he's just been through *I'm sure ill be better tomorrow.. I have to..* as his eyes slowly closed and his mind drifted from the worries.....

that was his plan but fate had other things for namjoon....

so this is the first chapter of LOST i'll try to update this as frequently as I can, hope you all enjoy and vote if you want the next chapter to be release faster :) jooonxxx out