Repetitious Affairs

Dirty

Condemned with a bitter and stale taste

A tainted love stains the tip of my tongue

Writhing wretched souls take control of me

In a decision otherwise sealed by fate:

I cave.

Does god see me differently, now that I'm

scathed?

Do the angels in their white pearls look down

on my blackened heart?

I've been touched by the devil himself and in

his loathing eyes I see nothing at all.

Stillness. A void. A mere, empty abyss.

I am damaged. A package that's been ripped

open only to have my remains thrown away.

Nobody wants a used and old, tattered heart.

It is nobody's job to mend it - to take it under

their wing.

I am the leftovers. I am nobody's prize.

Has the sky sealed me in, trapping me in this

hell on earth?

Do they know that I'm dirty?

Do they know I have looked evil in the eyes

and fought my way through the darkness

That engulfs minds only to be slapped with

this label of disgust and guilt?

I will never be the same.

You took my pride and squashed it like a bug.

I scrub at my skin to remove the pieces of you

that I never asked to receive.

Rid me of your false affection and cleanse me

so that I am again welcome amongst the

clouds and the stars.

Do you know that I'm dirty?

How will I know when the remnants are gone

and I have regained all the parts of myself

again?

I am unclean.

I am dirty.

Do you feel remorse?