You don't deserve to know me how you do.
I never should've invited you into the darkened corners of my mind,
and you never should've made a home for yourself there.
You stayed there even when there was no vacancy
and I wasn't going to be the one to bear the news to you
that you had to leave.
There was nowhere else for you to go.
I wasn't going to be the one to send you packing
even when I didn't have the room to keep you safe and warm.
I couldn't supply you with what you needed,
yet you stayed in the hotel of my thoughts
and took up more space than I had to offer.
It was dark and dingy and you didn't like the peeling corners
of the faded paper on my walls, so you tore it all down
without my permission.
You didn't like the way I had arranged my furniture,
so you burned the antique cabinets and tables and chairs
to pieces
without even asking me.
When I told you to leave, saying
"I have no place left for you here",
you laughed a menacing laugh
and pulled out all the keys you had cut
to every room -
every space -
that was once locked
in the private,
loving and kind
hotel of my mind.
You had access to it all.
I did not invite you to stay.
You had made a home for yourself
in a place that was strictly meant for me -
a place designed for my own healing and clarity -
but you ruined every bit of comfort
by moving in.
You weren't invited.
And now that you have access to
every single place
that I once hid and felt safe and secure -
I don't know where to go.
You have taken up the space
that was undoubtedly mine,
and now I am
left without a home.
If I were to move back in,
it wouldn't look the same anyway.
You have since
bought new furniture and
changed all the locks,
painted the walls
and put in new flooring.
I don't recognize this place.
I am without a home,
locked out of my own mind.
I never should've let you in.
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