--Pain-- // VxBTS // ||Taegi||

Chapter 15

Yoongi's POV
It's currently 6:00 AM, I decided to go home. It's not like I have somewhere else to go... I think the others already went home...

I just really can't think straight... I don't understand. I feel stupid.

Stupid to think that maybe Taehyung liked me. I mean... Did you see Jungkook? That boy can easily make you fall in love with him...

I don't hate him...

I can't hate him even if I want to. I know deep down he isn't bad, this is just the image he created himself.
Sometimes I wonder if he thinks of being his true self, to stop hiding himself behind those cold eyes, those harsh words...
I can't just blame him for someone else's feelings...

But that no way in hell helps the condition that I currently am in.
I'm so immature... Crying for such a small thing... What did I even expect?

How could I let my walls fall so easily?...

'I don't love you'

... words that made everything break in a matter of seconds...

'I don't like you'

... words that can cause such a mess.

'It'll always be Jungkook'

... all this pain because of a stupid rejection?

What would my father think of me right now ?

'Son, don't fall in love... Love brings only bad things. For what? All this pain for what? A feeling that'll only satisfy you for a short amount of time? And then what will happen? I tell you what, it'll break you. Again? For what? Love won't last forever, so don't be stupid. I loved your mother and she...just left. Left me alone, left us alone. Don't let anyone get to you. Don't let yourself look weak in front of other people'

Maybe after all, father was right. I should stop this stupid thing called 'love'. If I don't love anyone then... There won't be any pain right?

But again... How do you stop these feelings? It's not like I'll say 'go away' and they'll just disappear.

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Reaching home, I opened the door to such a nice view.

Two boyfriends sleeping together on the couch in each other's arms.

No, it doesn't hurt.

Can't lie... They do look good together. Can't even imagine Taehyung, such a beautiful human next to me...

Not that it'll happen anyways.

The more I stared at them the more I felt like dying, tears forming in my eyes ready to fall at any moment. 

Sighing, I just went in my room wiping my eyes from those stupid tears.

Not even bothering to take a bath, I just let myself fall on the bed, immediately falling asleep.

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Sorry it's so short. I wanted to put more scenes here but decided to let them for another chapter.

Do you guys think this story got boring?

Lately I haven't felt so good... Some people really pissed me off ruining  my mood for the whole week. Can't wait to move away from all those fake people. 1 more year...

Anyways, how've you been? I'm sorry I don't really update but I usually write when I'm in the mood.

The whole week I had tests... My god... Can't wait for the summer holiday so that I can stay the whole day in my room watching BTS videos and reading fan fiction. This may sound sad for other people but it's heaven for me!