All about......ME

.....im sick....

Of feeling worthless
Of people telling me I need to stop
Of crying
Of being broken
Of being lost
Of feeling worthless

I miss talking like a normal person
I miss being happy
I miss not feeling stressed out
I miss not feeling like a douche
I miss everything

But I am so tired of fighting you
I'm tired of snapping
I'm tired of being advised
I'm tired of crying for relief
I'm tired of cutting

I'm sick of people thinking they know my actions
Of people telling me I gotta change
Of people assuming
Of being laughed at
Of not being taken seriously

If these people read this, great 😃 I don't give a damn. Because it's sickening. So many people out there assuming. Telling me I need to change. Telling me to stop thinking of reality. I can't! I can't stop that! It's who I am! What do you want me to do, go somewhere and get a personality job done?! I'm tired of it!

AND THE PEOPLE TELLING ME THEY BELIEVE IN ME. IT FEELS SO FAKE. LIKE THEY FEEL OBLIGATED TO TELL ME THAT. LIKE, ITS A NATURAL REACTION TO THEM. DO THEY KNOW HOW MUCH I CRY SEEING THAT?!

THE HUGS, SMILES, AND ALL THAT SHIT..ITS ME FAKING. I AM NOT SINCERE NOT FULLY.

I DONT LIKE SNAPPING

I DONT LIKE FEELING STUPID

I DONT LIKE BEING UNDERESTIMATED

I DONT LIKE BEING DOUBTED

I DONT LIKE FEELING WORTHLESS

I DONT LIKE KNOWING IM WORTHLESS

I DONT LIKE CRYING

I DONT LIKE HURTIN OTHERS

I DONT LIKE BEING THREATENED

I DONT LIKE FEELING THREATENED

like, seriously. All I've gotten from people is shit or happiness that I'm just not buying! For once in my life, I'd like to NOT feel the need to hit someone. To not feel like Imma murder a bitch. To not feel pathetic. And I'm overwhelmed! By so much stuff! People break at points! I'm still trying to forget bad things from my past! I'm trying to cope with trying to not give into overdosing! How can you expect me to be like before?! How come people only care, when I show it? How come people only care, when I've hurt somebody? How come people are fake? How come people only care about themselves. How come people enjoy hurting others.

I'm fucking sick of it all...