Beautiful When You Don't Try (Camren)

Chapter 105

A/N: Here's the conclusion... kind of. I'll let you read it without any spoilers in the notes. In response to the question about when are we going to see Camila pregnant and how many more chapters are there... Soon and not many.

As for the prequel of Lauren/Adrianne... I will upload it after we finish this story. (It's so worth it)

Anyway, thank you for reading and to all of you who let me know what you think.

Thank you and enjoy.

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Between the stress, the fear, the pain, the guilt, and the panic, Lauren was slowly losing her grip. The doctor ordered something to help calm her anxiety. That, matched with the exhaustion of just having delivered twins, caused her to fall asleep to Camila's relief. When Lauren had fallen asleep with aide, everyone else took the time to retreat and sort out their own emotions. Camila wouldn't leave her side other than to try and peek in on the nursery, but the curtains were closed most of the night.

The brunette didn't even try and sleep. She stayed up and watched Lauren as she did, running her hand gently through her hair, and lightly kissing her cheek whenever emotions threatened to overrun her as well. She needed to be the strong one right now. Tears weren't going to help anyone at the moment. She just kept telling herself that when Lauren woke up, everything was going to be different. It was going to be better, or okay.

When the nurse brought Julian to them in the morning, she saw Lauren smile and knew that she had been right. Camila watched Lauren with him closely, loving every second of it but hating it at the same time. She was torn. She wanted to feel happy and ecstatic but felt guilty for gushing over one baby while the other could only be visited in the neonatal ICU.

"He has your eyes." The brunette stated as she almost drooled over their son. He slowly blinked his eyes a few times, looking at them both as if he already knew who they were. "I'm so glad he has your eyes. That they have your eyes."

"I'm glad they at least got your hair." Camila smiled from her place in bed next to Lauren. The nurses had told them that it was against policy for them to share a bed but that wasn't going to stop them. Especially not after yesterday. Lauren needed Camila there and Camila needed Lauren to know she was there. "When can we go see him?"

"Gabriel?" Camila asked and looked at the clock. "The nurse said after they finish the shift change. So, another fifteen minutes."

The raven-haired nodded her head and looked back down at Julian. "So, you decided on Gabriel as his name? I thought you liked the name James better."

The brunette ran her hand through her messy hair, unsure of how to proceed. "I thought Gabriel was more fitting. It's a Hebrew name meaning 'God is my might' and I thought that he could use a strong name like that right now." Camila explained looking into Lauren's eyes. "I know you're not really a believer, but..."

That had been a heartbreaking moment for Camila. When she was waiting with Lauren as she started to succumb to her sleep, the raven-haired rambled on, asking if he was punishing her. When Camila asked her if who was punishing her, Lauren said God. She wanted to know if he was punishing her for loving Camila. She said that she had tried so hard not to love her but she couldn't help it. The raven-haired had grabbed her wife's hand and just kept mumbling that she couldn't help but to love her and she was sorry for what it had caused. Lauren didn't seem to remember any of it now.

"It's fine. I love your reasoning. Julian Alexander Jauregui and Gabriel James Jauregui. Beautiful names for beautiful boys." She smiled lightly again, resting her head back, keeping her eyes locked with Camila's. Camila would give anything if that smile was to stay. She leaned down and kissed her wife tenderly, lingering in the connection before kissing her gently again.