John Winchester X Reader

Walking Away

I walk to my Camaro about to break down in tears. I open the car door tossing my bag in the passenger seat, I sit in the driver's seat. My lower lip quivers tears begin filling my eyes, I take a deep breath and start the car. Sam and Dean run out shouting my name as I pull out of the parking lot. I head back towards Canada. Not looking back I drive fast on backroads. I blast the radio singing along to a song called IDFC by Black Bear. Sniffling I pull off onto a small trail I park and tear up again slamming my fist against the steering wheel tears begin to stream down my cheeks. " Goddamn it! This is what I get for caring about someone! I'm fucking done caring about people " I sob resting my forehead on the wheel. " I didn't mean anything to them. They just wanted to use me to find Yellow eyes " I mumble pulling back onto the road. I drive and drive as fast as I can until I get to a small cabin I own in Alberta Canada.

Isolated, quiet, peaceful. I smile grabbing my bag I walk into the cabin. This is one John doesn't know about thankfully. I smile softly and strip myself of my clothing I put on a bathing suit and walk down to a small lake, I walk down its doc and start doing pushups then sit-ups. Whenever something majorly shitty happens and I can get away this is where I go, I work out calm down and relax.

After the sit ups and push-ups I dive into the water and begin doing laps, after about my 8th lap I pull myself out of the water panting a bit heavily. I walk back to the cabin hearing my phone going off. Its Dean. I tense and turn my phone off. I walk into a large training room with punching bags weapon training and a ton of other things. I start practicing punches and kicks working out my frustrations.

I pant heavily hitting it hard enough it breaks off the chains. I wipe a bead of sweat from my forehead, quietly I head towards the kitchen grabbing myself a cup of water. " I need groceries" I mumble and walk to the car after dressing in shorts and a tank top. I go into a small town that is about an hour and 45 minutes away. I walk into a grocery store picking up various meats, veggies, spices, fruits, Alcohols and other things like eggs, bread, a blender etc. I quietly walk to a check out. The woman checking my things and I have a nice conversation before I pay and leave. Quietly I put everything in the trunk of my car when someone grabs my ass.

I growl turning around I punch them out and drag them to the sidewalk. I close my trunk and head to my cabin again. I quietly bring everything in and put it away.

Sighing I look at the time 12:00AM. I walk to my room and go to bed. The next morning I wake up. Quietly I dress in shorts and a tank top, I walk into the kitchen making myself a mixed berry Kale smoothie before heading out for a jog. My jog turns into me sprinting as fast as I can. Though I come to a dead stop when I see the impala. The breaks squeal and it stops. John and the boy's get out but I start sprinting again " Y/N! " John shouts, I raise my middle finger and continue running.

Sam starts sprinting after me, I push myself further but end up tripping over a tree root. I land on my stomach and slide a good two feet. My shirt had torn and I had cuts, bruises and road rash up my stomach. I pick a few sharp rocks that are embedded in my skin out. Sam catches up to me " Y/n, please come back dad didn't mean what he said. He was frustrated--" Sam starts, I limp over to Sam my hip still hurting from when I dislocated it. " Sammy I'm going to tell you something. Your father and I have slept together. I love him but he keeps hurting me. I caught him cheating on me with my ex best friend in my room. Then I realize the only reason he kept me around was because he needed help finding yellow eyes. So I'm frustrated too " At this time I'm crying " I'm nothing to him, he's the only one I let in this deep and he crushed me Sammy he took my heart and shattered it. " I turn away from him " He can go to hell! " I sniffle lightly sobbing " Why doesn't anybody want me?" I break down when Sam picks me up and carries me back. Dean and John look at him.

I sniffle wiping my tear stained cheeks. Sam sets me down on my feet John cups my face in his hand, I look at him and slap him " Don't touch me" I start walking towards my Cabin. Sam fills Dean in, quietly I keep walking clenching my fists. I walk into my cabin grabbing a bottle of Bourbon I walk into the bathroom bandaging myself stomach after taking my shirt off. I sip the bourbon staring off in space.

John walks into my cabin after letting the boys take the impala to town so they can find a motel. I walk out of the bathroom seeing John " Out" I mumble. He doesn't move " I said get out! " I throw the bottle in his direction it hits the door behind him " Y/n... Listen to me. I'm sorry okay I know I constantly fuck up. Im asking for one more chance. I'll treat you like the queen like the way you deserve to be treated Y/N. I had no clue how you felt but after Sammy told me what you said I know I had to make it right" John looks at me with pleading eyes.