I got back in time for dinner after yesterday,i ate and just went to bed ,i guess it was cool meeting the team and jill but i dont care if they are famous soccer players to me they are just people ,i dont see them as stars i just see them as them well made not alex Morgan, i am not sure what i see her as ,she tryed to talk to me but i just didnt want to there is just something about her that deep down i feel like i can trust her ,that i can tell her anything but i dont want to, its to dangerous for me ,i cant let anyone else in just to get hurt ,so i have no problem talking with the team because i know i wont get close with them,but alex i think its better if i just push her away ,anyway i have just woken up so i am getting ready to head to the stadium for day 2 of being a slave ,finishing my hair i say by to sara and leave the hotel walking about 10 minutes to the field, on my way i pass alot of hobos who want my money but i dont have any on me so i offer them a high five for not giving up on life and walk on ,once i reach the soccer stadium i walk past jackson who i found out is the name of the security guard and onto the field seeing the team are just starting to stretch ,i walk up to jill and tap her shoulder getting her to turn around to me
"Sup boss "
She looks at me for a second before turning away"good you came back"
"You didnt think i would?"i ask somewhat confused as to why she would think that
"Thought you where a bad girl type and would have ditched "she shrugs and calls the team over and before see can get anything out i interrupt her
"Not to be rude boss,but just because i come off as a bad girl type doesnt mean i am ,i get i do things i am not supposed to but it doesnt mean i just avoid the consequences ,besides if i didnt come you would have just tracked me down and forced me back"i say which makes the whole team look at me before back at jill to see what she is gonna say
"You think your so important that i would track you down?"she shot back at me
"No never thought i was important before and i dont think it now, what i do think is that you have a different reasoning for me being here then you let on"i say crossing my arms ,jill looks at me then shakes her head and turns to the team"okay ladys i want you to split up and do some drills "they nod and run off while i head over to the bench snd sit down watching ,after some time jill comes over and sit by me "you dont trust people very easy do you?"i look to her before back at the team
"I have a pretty good reason not to "
"Name one"
I look at her"my father "
"What happened kid?"
"Thats for me to know and me only"i stand up and walk over to the water hearing her sigh and walk away,i dont understand why people ask me that,why they even try ,i mean come on your asking someone who doesnt trust people a question that needs trust in order to awnser ,you see how that doesnt work out? I trust 3 people in my life and even they dont know everything about me,my secrets have secrets ,thats just how i am ,so far broken that i can be fixed ,i am known for not giving up on things but the one thing i have given up on is healing ,and yeah i push people away so i dont get hurt again,but honestly in truth all i want is for one person to stay and never leave no matter how much i push them,thats when i can trust and open up, thats when i know i wont get hurt and right now i dont have that with anyone and i definitely dont have it with jill or the team and i definitely dont have it with alex ,it just how it is
After about 30 minutes i see some of the girls walking over and fill up some cups of water for them"hey kid why dont you join us for a match ?we are gonna split the team up into 2 groups "i look up and see that it was hope who ask me and shake my head"i dont play soccer"
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