Mal was right , I woke up in the middle of the night freaking out about the game , I can't believe I scored 4 times , I just never thought I'd be here in my life ever ...yet here I am freaking out in the middle of the night because this is my life now .
" Jordan if you don't stop walking back and forth I'm going to throw something at you " Mal speaks up from her bed , her voice muffled from the pillow she has her face stuffed into . I pause to look at her before shrugging , I walk towards the window and look out at the city lights .
" I'm0 sorry it's just-" I begin But she cuts me off
" you are freaking out yes I know but for the love of god could you freak out a bit quieter " she lifts her head up from her pillow and glares at me , I pout but nod my head
"Sorry " I whisper an apology and walk over to her " I just can't help it , I never believed this day would come and I'm just so excited " a smile breaks onto her face as I rant excitedly " i — I'm half way there mallory , everyone who has ever doubted me is beginning to get proven just how wrong they were.....i can't hold it in anymore wait till she hears this " I walk around the bed excitedly and grab my phone
"What are you doing ?" I ignore Mal once I realize who I was about to call and pause the excited expression gone from my face ....."Jordan ? What's wrong?"
" I ...I was gonna call her ...I forgot she-" I gulp and set my phone back down "never mind , I'm sorry for waking you up ..I'll go back to sleep now " I walk around and get into my bed with my back facing mallory.
I'm such an idiot ...how could I forget
" Jordan ? What's wrong ?"
Tears fill my eyes and I shake my head " I-I was gonna call her mal"
"Who ?" I hear her shuffling around as she asks
".....my grandma ....I was gonna— " tears fall down my face and I feel myself being pulled over onto my back , I glance up at mallory as she is now hovering over me .
"Jordan " she says my name gently
" I didn't even get to say goodbye ...the last thing I did was yell at her mallory , you should have seen her face " a frown forms on mals face and tears make way into her eyes " my father was right ....I'm a disappointment and that's all I'll ever be , no score will change that "
She shakes her head at me "don't say that "
" why not!" I push her away and stand up " it's true !! You don't understand no one will ever understand !!!"
Mal walks around the bed and over to me " let it out "
"W-what ?" I breath out heavily
"Let it out ....its time for you to let it all out " mal says placing her hand on my shoulder
"I don't understand?" I whisper
"Yes you do " she wraps her arms around me " I'm here ...let go " I feel my knees become week and mal slowly brings us down onto the floor . "Let it out Jordan "
"I-Im so s-sorry " I break down and I let go
Crying , balling my eyes out , for how long I'm not sure , hours maybe ? And the whole time mal held me and not once did she let me go , when I tired to push her away she held on tighter .... and just let me cry .
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"Come on kid we have a fun day ahead of us " kel says patting my shoulder , i shrug and shake her hand off
" if you call running drills all day fun im pretty sure you need to see a doctor "i roll my eyes at her and she smirks
"What would say doctor diagnose me with " she asks playing along
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chasing dreams
AdventureJordan rosewood never had a easy life most of it was full of pain ,her mother died when she was 8 leaving jordan with her abusive father ,at the age of 12 being put into a orphanage , only family member felt was her grandmother who was to sick to l...