"happy" girl pulled me into a fantasy, a fantasy that i so desperately wanted
the fantasy where we could hold hands down the halls and everyone would just go about their day and i would be able to bring you home for dinner and my mother would laugh and my dad would smile and my sister would joke around about what i was like as a small child, the fantasy where i didn't have to worry about the world hating me and how i can live my life as carefree as possible
the fantasy that i quickly learned that i will never be able to fulfill
"happy" girl taught me a lesson:
heartache mourns for a long time
and if you hold onto it for too long,
it'll be the death of you
