It's taking all your strenght (Zarry /AU.) /English Version

17. The Beach

Flashback Harry

"Jesus," I think, trying to control my trembling hands. After fifteen agonizing months, I'm about to see him again - the man of my dreams. I can't think clearly. Out of the blue his message reaches me and throws me completely off course. That's so typical of Zayn. He suddenly disappears from my life. I haven't heard from him in months. All I could do was satisfy my longing with newspaper reports about him. Then all of sudden he shows up and puts me in a state of terrible panic.

I call for my friend Lou in order to speak about my date and to avoid misunderstandings.  In addition, she must necessarily advise me. I have a date with Zayn Malik. Unbelievable. What if he's not coming? If it's all just a joke? I grab my phone again and check his message. No, no it's not a delusion. Everything is true.

Lou trippes over the warm wooden floor. Her footsteps are coming closer. 

"Darling, what's so important?" She asks, sitting down on a chair. 

"Lou," I'm  whispering. 

"Lou, Zayn is in Jamaica and he wants and he wants to see me!", I finally blurt out. 

Full of expectation, I look in her face and try to read her mind.

 "Oh!" She says.

 "Oh? That's all you have to say, Lou?" I reply disappointedly.

 "Harry, what do you expect me to say? Do you want me to jump around joyfully? Don't raise your hopes! He left you  broken-hearted, giving you sleepless nights. Did you just forget that? Look at yourself, darling, you're a shadow of your former self!", Lou yells.

" You expect too much from me. I'll  never forgive him for it."  She says angrily.

 "I'm afraid for you, Harry. Hopefully it won't end in tears. I can't see you suffer like this again. It just breaks my heart." 

I nod. 

"I'm scared, Lou." I whine. 

"Do you really want to do this to yourself? Do you really want to see Zayn again?" She asks. 

"I have to, Lou! I have to. I love Zayn!" I cry. "I love him and I miss him." I whisper helplessly.