Jennie
"I don't think I deserve you..."
I froze when those words slips out of Jisoo's mouth. I stared at her blankly, examining every actions she's making. Herer eyes startd water, her throat gulp audibly and her body feels so weak.
"Take your medicine." I say, changing the subject.
I took the pill and the water. I offered it to her to her but she just shakes her head.
"Come on Jisoo, you need to take this. You're sick."
"I feel more than this sickness." She says quietly.
"What do you mean?" I asks in confusion as my brows furrowed.
"I'm hurt..." She choked out along with the tears escaping from her eyes.
There is something in me that is aching. It feels like what she feels right now is transferring to mine and it hurts.
"Jisoo, please...stop crying. You can tell me." I say moving to wipe her tears.
"How about you tell me." She stares right into my eyes and I gasped when I see how much hurt is visible in her eyes.
My eyes becomes shaky and glassy as I stared at those beautiful eyes that now are tainted with pain.
"Chu..."
I tried to hold her but she stops me. Even stops my heart a beat before it continues to beat again, but now in pain. Why is she like this? Why all of a sudden she's acting like this? I can't understand.
"Come on Jennie. Say it." She urges while chuckling bitterly.
"W..What do you mean say it?"
What is she talking about?
"I know I'm not the most ideal girlfriend who exist and I assume I'm not even close to the person you really wanted." She started.
"Jisoo! What are you talking about!? You know that it isn't true!" I argued.
I'm starting to get annoy of her behavior. I don't know if this is because she is sick and she's being emotional because I don't get it!
"Of course it is! This past few weeks..." Her tears started to flow again.
Damn it! I don't know what is the root of this but I hate it that she's crying because of me.
"...we barely spend time together." She whisper quietly. "I miss you. I miss the time where you are all mine. I hate it that someone is getting your attention." She whispers but I can still hear it.
I know that we barely spend time together but I dontr know what she is talking about that someone is getting my attention. No one is going to get my attention more than her. I'm all hers.
"I didn't mean to invade your privacy but I saw a message."
"What message?" I frowned.
"Oh please, can you stop acting so innocent! You know it yourself!" She bursted out.
I was taken aback because of her sudden burst but I quickly composed myself and look at her in disbelief.
"I don't know! Can you just say it directly! I am not a mind reader!" I countered back.
I don't like this. I hate the most when we fight, especially that I don't have any clue why is acting like this.
"Aren't you planning on breaking...up with me."
The last, she started to sob and I stayed in froze. How... I mean why in the hell she's thinking that!?
"I know there is something going on between you and Kang. It's okay, you can break up with me and go with your happiness. I am not gonna lie that it will kill me in pain but it's okay. I love you and I want the best for you."
She smiles through the pain. And that is the thing that I don't wanna see in my whole life. My heart started to pound painfully. All this time, I was being stupid. Not knowing that I am hurting her. But she got it all wrong. There is nothing going on between me and Kang. It will never happen, not with anyone. Because I only love her.
"Now you're speechless. She chuckled lowly while shaking her head. "I knew it."
She falls back on her bed.
"Say it Jennie. Break up with me."
"Are you sure you want to hear that?"
She stays quiet and I caught how she grip the blanket on her fists. She don't want it.
"I will just close my eyes and you can walk away. At least it will not her me that much because I can't see you walking away."
"Okay then, close your eyes."
It caught her in shock. Maybe she didn't expect that I will really asks her to do that. She gulp once again and look at me before she slowly closes her eyes. A single drop of tears falls down on her beautiful face.
I move to shift on the bed, raised my right hand and slap her hard that it echoed in her room. Her eyes bulges open and her mouth drop agape. My palm stinks in pain and her cheek is read from the hard contact. I was breathing heavily because of all the resistance I tried to stop myself from crying. But I can't hold it anymore, I let my tears falls down.
"You are so stupid! Fucking stupid to doubt my love for you!" I cried. "All of your accusations are all false."
She cupped her sore cheek and tilted her head to see me.
"I can't break up with you because in the first place, I don't want to! I don't want to because I love you. And I love you that I can't see myself living in the future without you beside me. All I want is you Jisoo, no one else! It's crazy that I without you, I can see my worth living in this world. So stop talking nonsense!"
I break down and cover my face while crying.
"If you think that Kang and I have a thing, think again because there is none! I can't cheat on you. And I would never find someone else to replace you because you are the only one that I want to spend the rest of my life with."
"Fuck!"
I heard her cursed before she enveloped me with a tight hug.
"I'm so sorry. Please forgive me Jendeuk." She says softly. "I am the most stupid living person in the world. I'm so sorry." She hugged me even tighter.
"I hate you for doubting my love to you..." I sobbed. "...but I don't hate it that I'm crazy and deeply in love with you." I say reciprocating her hug.
"I know, and I deserved that hate." She pulled away from our hug and wipe my tears. "Can you forgive this idiotic person in front of you?"
"Can I slap you once more?" I said instead.
"I...hmm. Sure." She replied in not so sure way.
I raised my right hand again and she immediately shut her eyes. "But can you do it with less force this time? I think my cheekbone git smashed earlier."
I scoff a silent laugh and move my hand, but not to slap but to pull the back of her neck and smash my lips with hers. She gasped at the sudden contanct and I expertly slipped my tongue inside her mouth, earning a satisfying moan.
"Kang is just a brother to me. We have a relationship..." She was about to pull out bit i just deepen the kiss. "...and that relationship is just a sisterly, and brotherly relationship."
She groaned and let me sit on her lap without pulling away from our kiss. "Stop mentioning his name...and that's good."
I smiled at the kiss and so is she. And we both know we already made it up to each other. Because of course, we also both know that we can't stand a day without solving our arguments.
"About his message...What it is all about?" She asks after breaking the kiss.
We both stare at each other with lost and daze eyes.
"He was inviting us for his engagement party. Can you be my date?" I asks proudly.
"I'm more than willing to be your partner."
...
[Right! So the angst will end here!]
