Perfect Addiction | Jenshad

Chapter 25

spiralling down |Chapter 25
Two days later, two days of no contact, of no messages or phone calls. Nothing. Because Jennifer fucked up, because she killed him, shot him at once and watched him walk away from her.

She deserved it and this was exactly what she wanted.

Her decision was right.

Her decision is right, she thinks as she bites her lips walking in circles in her makeup room.

Nikhil is the best, he is understanding of her work and her, cares for her, loves her and most importantly is away from media, away for buzz and galmour and she wants it to stay that way.

All these emotions and feelings towards Harshad are nothing but attraction, plain lust she thinks. It will go away if she stays away, she has to. She can't do this to Nikhil and more over she can't sabotage the one good thing she has in her life, all for the reason that she can't control her feelings and wants to kiss those pink lips of his.

No, no.... She has taken a right decision.

Then why does she feels like her heart is breaking?

That it crack when his smile vanished?

And felt numb when he walked out of the door?

I got your message.

The anger in his eyes and voice could slash her,she thinks. And that is the reason she is tensed to meet him again. God knows how she is going to act with him and infront of him.

"You fucked up big time Jen!"

"You should have not done this in first place. Hell, you should have not walked back home with him" she curses, slapping her forehead as that's the night, the night when she gave up and gave in, bared her want and craving and look where it landed her.

In thirty minutes she is called for her take and with delicate steps she walks out and on the set, her fist curled at her sides, mobile in one hand as her eyes searches for him.

She sees him sitting in one of the director's chair with the script in his hand getting his make up done. Unable to understand how to approach him she settles beside Aniruddh smiling and indulging in talks about the scene.

The take starts and both are infront of each other. She gives him a small smile which is efficiently ignored making sad but she quickly averts her eyes focusing on the paper in front. She looks back at him as he laughs, only to see he was laughing with or at Sehzad as both share a conversation, which she only silently listens.

As soon as the ACTION! Is called they both get into their role.

It's far too difficult for Harshad as Aditya is in love with Zoya who is forced to be with Arshad. He gets into his character heart burning as he tries to woo her when he can't even be in two inches of distance from her. But being professionals they manage very well as no one on the sets notices anything odd as they do the scene.

But Jennifer notices the way he barely makes eye contact with her, the slight changes he had done to the scene like his position as, emotions she knows has nothing to do with technicals, lighting or scene and everything to do with him.

"Har..." she goes to say as soon as the cut is called only for him to walk away from her leaving her

Her eyes furrowed as she tries to talk to him, not knowing exactly what she is going to tell him but she can't see him like this.

After sometime she gets the message that he is avoiding her and that pains her making her sigh as she takes a sit in a chair rubbing her forehead tears welling in her eyes as she understands the level at which he is hurt.

She tries yet again at the end of the day only for him to stare blankly at her, although some anger is clearly visible.

"Har! Har.. Harshad wait!"she runs behind him pulling his arm that he quickly shrugs away startling her, as they reach their cars. The same place they had a fight last time.

She blinks moves infront of him blocking his path, trying to make him understand " I know I was harsh. But I think this is - "

" I am not stupid Jennifer or a three years old. I got what you told me. I can very well hear and understand language "he cuts her off, eyes stern as he tries to keep the hurt away from his voice.

" Harshad, please... Stop being difficult "she stops shaking her head, she doesn't want them to end badly and pleads as she has a feeling this is  going to take turn for worse. 

" Really?"he replies sarcastically before saying " I am doing exactly what you told me - "she cuts him off sighing because his silent treatment was sitting well with her and it hasn't even been a day.

"I never told you to stop talking. I told you we can't, this fooling around needs to stop someday"

"Listen Ms. Winget, don't generalize things on both of us which might be only for you." he says, loudly taking a step towards her making her move behind startled as she hits her back to the car.

"I am not. I am just saying, it will -" she closes her eyes trying to make him understand but he cuts her off, the hurt giving away as he says

"You just declared without having my say in it. I can't believe you didn't even talk to me first"

"Harshad, it's not like that.. I was a mes-"she wraps her fingers on his wrist as she starts only for him to grab her fingers and jerk her hand away as he says, done with her as her words, the way she cut him off rings in his ear.

" It's exactly like that. Don't bother to explain an-"

This time she says, hurt that he wouldn't even let her complete, understand her reasons that she knows she brazenly splayed out "I thought you are the most understanding gu-"

"Doesn't give you the right to play" he cuts off face inches away from her, his eyes hard and she gulps only ever seen this expression in the beginning of the show when he was playing the old availing to take revenge Hooda.

"And I am, I understand sensible things!" he shouts, heart broken unable to understand why her words hurt so much, why shouting at her hurts so much and why he was feeling this way.

"Don't shout!" she glares at him.

And he sighs, looks away hands in his pocket a huge silence between them and Jennifer can sense, this is it. This is where they go in opposite direction,especially when he looks at her with pain in his eyes that she can feel all the way because unlike him she already is in love with him.

"I am just following your orders "he sighs moving away opening his car door before he looks at her with pain,  betrayal and anger as he finishes off with " Mam"

"Harshad plea-" Jennifer tears up, her nose red as she puts her fingers on her mouth as she understands where he is going as he continues "I am not right for you. I got it"

"Bye Jennifer" he smiles at her softly because he should have known a girl like her will never go for a guy like him

And with that thought he sits inside, locking the door and drives away.

"Fuck! "Jennifer whispers closing her eyes as tears spring out.

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I think this is short, but oh well

This is I think the fastest update I have done for this story

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Ri x