Perfect Addiction | Jenshad

Chapter 38

Jennifer has never been good at confrontation. The last time she had one ended up with a divorce. So,yes she is afraid of confrontation, both at the receiving or giving ends. And however, she tells herself this is her confronting Harshad. It feels more like hers.

And what can she even confront him about?

For being indifferent?

For being a gentleman?

For being a guy that made her tingle with need to kiss whenever she saw him ?

For her incompetence to be the one he deserved?

She is not capable of this ,she shakes her head thinking how bad this idea is. She has the absolute urge to get in her car and fuck the hell off from here. But her feet seemed to be stuck in the same spot and she knows this talk needs to happen. She watches the gate waving at everyone who are coming out ready to get home silently wishing for Harshad to come out fast at the same time not really.

She is leaning on her car ,arms folded ina defensive manner " So"

"So ..?"Harshad prompts wanting her to start. She looks away biting her lip as she tucks her hair behind her earmoves her hair away from her face. 

"It was a nice dinner, I rea-"she started but only for Harshad to cut her off as he sighed "Jennifer"

Jennifer smiled ,her eyes red with unshedded tears as she shrugged her shoulders "I don't know where to start ? I am sorry. I just seeing you with her that night. I lost it,okay . I just lost it. Are you with her?"

"What the fuck Jenny ?!  More importantly why does it even matter ? In case you have forgotten you were there with your boyfriend. Shouldn't really matter what I do with or who I do with ?" he says, raking his fingers through his hair trying to figure her out.

"Shut up"Jennifer sighs, rubbing her temple with her fingers because yes she was kind of out of line, she already has a boyfriend and she really shouldn't have waltzed like that throwing herself all ovet him when he was clearly with someone, her friend.

"No why should I ? You had no right to drag me and kiss me. Not after you pushed me aside like some tissue."Harshad says not backing out this time, not letting her get away with this. He feels like he has been letting her play with him.

"Har- I am sorry. I never meant to make you feel that way" she sighs apologizing because she knows she is in the wrong.

" That's not the point Jennifer. The point is you have a boyfriend and I am single, i can be with whoever I want." he says and he is right.

"No ,you can't" she replies right back making him a little furious, mostly frustrated. And he almost screams out, all his feelings bursting out not able to be patient any longer. He needs answers , he wants to understand her but she makes it so hard for him.

"And why the hell not ?! If you have Nikhil ,why the fuck I can't have anyone !? Answer me !"

"Because I love you!"

There is dead silence as she confesses, loud and clear her words echoing between them.

"There I said it. You wanted to know it and I said it. Are you happy?"

"No , I am not. Not when you are crying while saying it." Harshad says softly, his voice going soft all together hearing her confession. He helplessly watches her facial expression, her eyes showing everything else than happiness and he wants to help her, wants to smooth away her pain. But right now all he can do is watch as she struggles, "Because I cant love you. And I can't definitely have you ,dont you understand we are not meant to be. I cant leave Nikhil,he loves me too much. I cant break his heart. He will .. I cant do this to him"