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susabi x ninja reader

Being born and raised in the shadows was a lonely life filled with bloodshed, iga the legendary ninja clan was cruel and unforgiving as soon as I took my first breath i was to defend for myself, blood was always present whether it be the blood of an target or of ninja of the clan all that matter was coins it wasn't uncommon for relatives to kill one another mothers,fathers,sisters, brothers, cousins, daughters, sons, aunts, uncles, grandparents... love was non existent the only thing that matters is the village and shinny coins....

I travel through the tree tops i jump from branch to branch when i reach the edge of a cliff i look down at the village by the sea the villagers were  gathered around the shore, then i see my target he was tying a young boy up i jump down  into a tree, jumping from the roof tops before i send my kunai flying down the sharp tips covered in poison made from lethal viper venom i brought my katana and slicing my way through to my target blood flew all around me most of the villagers went fleeing it didn't matter how many casualties happened as long as my mission was complete or unless the employer had specifically said to spare bystanders....i slice through my targets throat before he could react the little boy was staring at me with blue eyes that seemed to have the night sky in them something inside me stirred i raised my katana he flinches closing his eyes tightly as i cut the ropes i pick the boy up and throw him onto my back "hold on tight...."i say monotone i feel his small arms wrap around my neck and i set off

The villagers didn't dare follow they probably saw the iga crest on my armor the crest many feared.....i lower myself to the ground so the kid could get off instead of running he follows me as i begin to walk away why did i bring him....why didn't I leave him....why haven't i killed him....i feel something that I  never felt as i look at the boy following me sympathy....

Timeskip

We didn't share any words with one another from the corner of my eye i would catch the boy staring at me from time to time until he fell asleep i watched as his small chest rose and fell in his slumber th..this child is bringing something out of me....feelings...emotions....the most taboo thing to ninjas in iga clan....i take out my katana i need to kill him....i need to kill these new found emotions...my grip on my katana tightened as my hand trembled i need to kill him before these feelings kill me....i raise my katana above the sleeping boys Head

Slash

I drop to my knees trembling i stare at my trembling hands before looking back at the boy who was sleeping peacefully "why... why...can't i kill him..." ive killed so many...men, women, and children so why can't i bring myself to end his life....why...i grab the boy and hold him close before i too drift to sleep

I wake to find the boy hugging me in his sleep i look around to see the moon still high in the night sky I   gently push him off me his face seemed to  scrunch up i let out a chuckle my eyes go wide as i am surprised at myself what power does this kid have over me?i stare blankly at the boy his dark blue hair glowing in the moonlight i take out a normal kimono i slip it on over my armor i pull my satchel over my shoulder before i gently pick up the kid making sure he didn't wake up i carry him into the night

Timeskip

I head into a inn the woman looks at me shocked seeing me carrying a young teen boy i walk to the counter "may i have a room" i ask she nods "I will pay once i have him in bed"she nodded understanding the situation she takes me to my room i gently place the boy in the bedding and cover him before i pay the inn lady before joining the boy in the room i sit in the corner of the room my back to the wall as i stare at the sleeping boy the question still plagued my mind why couldn't i bring myself to kill him...i've watched countless people as the life slipped from their eyes....i was born to kill....i was raised to feel nothing about my victims.... to forsake my emotions....ive killed countless men, women and children none of it mattered....i felt nothing to their desperate crys to spare their lives....so why....cant i bring myself to kill him..how can he bring this warmth from within me....making me feel alive.....ma...maybe....this is what those ninja who rebelled against the clan felt like before they were hunted
Down and killed....because they found something to make them feel alive....something that made them feel...gave them something to protect...to cherish....to love..... closing my eyes as i let myself drift to sleep again