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Chryss
The party ended with everyone in a joyous mood except me. Gusto ko pa sanang tumulong sa pag-aayos ng mga kalat ngunit marami na rin namang tumutulong. I'm also too drain to do anything besides sleeping or.. crying.
After the blowing of the cake, Senechov was nowhere to be found. Hinahanap siya ng paningin ko ngunit tila nawala siyang parang bula.
"Where is my stubborn son, Chryss?" She asked me.
Maging siya'y hinahanap sa akin si Senechov.
"Hindi ko po alam." Umiiling kong sagot.
She stared at me with scrutinizing eyes. Kinakabahan akong baka malaman niya ang nangyayari sa akin. She's just like Manang Minda. I felt like she can see through my eyes.
"Okay.. Anyway, enjoy the party. You deserve it for helping in making this happen." She said gently.
Nakatitig lang sa amin si Shiela at hayag ang pag-aalala niya sa akin.
"I'm okay." I told her.
My biggest lie, of course.
Kung hindi lang siguro iyon party ni Santhe, malamang nagwalk-out na ako. But it isn't right to ruin his birthday celebration. I know he wants to see me. He would surely look for me if I skip the party. Mabuti na lang nga at may mga clown pang inimbitahan si Seref para magpasaya ng mga bata. Dahil doon wala masyado sa akin ang atensyon ni Santhe.
It was really a long night for me. So long and sad.
How did it turned out like this? A downhill turn of events. I was expecting this day to be memorable for Santhe but it really isn't for me..
He was so sweet to me this evening during halfway of the party then fate choose to reveal my lies to him.
And now I'm blaming fate for all of this. I'm going insane! This is all my fault and I'm blaming others for my mistakes. I am feeling hideous for myself now.
Pero kung hindi ito nangyari ngayon, siguradong hahanap pa ako ng maraming extension para sabihin ang lahat kay Senechov. At alam ko sa sarili kong parati akong hahanap ng tiyempo para magsabi sa kanya ng totoo hanggang sa hindi ko na masabi pa. Inaamin ko, I've been wishing that I don't have to tell him anything at all. Kung pwede lang ilihim ko ito habang buhay. But telling lies is hard. It's getting heavy in my chest and I felt so guilty all the time.
And I hate myself for thinking like this. Kaya nangyari itong lahat sa umpisa pa lang ay dahil naglihim ako.
Napabuntong hininga ako habang nakatitig sa kawalan. Tears are starting to fall down my cheeks. All I ever do is cry but I just have to. It makes me feel a lot better.
Secrets can't really be hidden forever, huh. I should never think that this is a bad timing. Dahil hindi na talaga dapat ako naglihim pa. It's impossible to hide this forever. I should have done everything right from the start.
Kung sana lang ay alam ko ang sasabihin ko kay Senechov bukod sa paghingi ng tawad. How could he think I planned all of this? Na pinaglaruan ko siya? Didn't he noticed how I love him? Haven't I showed him enough that I care?
And I barely slept that night with a heavy heart.
"Chryss.. thank you.."
She's smiling at me while fading away.
"Take care, my sister.."
"Ate!" Napabalikwas ako ng bangon habang hinahabol ang hininga.
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The Crude Casanova
General Fiction[ Stanford Series #2 ] [FIN] She was hired as a helper in a mansion owned by the famous casanova, Senechov Stanford. Their first meeting wasn't a good one. She already have an impression of him as a rude man. Not to mention his kid who doesn't like...
