sunflower [ poetry/ proses/ quotes]

➸ a lost lover

today i cremate all of those suicide notes and write love letters, instead. i address all of them to my heart and in the corner scribble: 'a lost lover.' i tuck my grandmother's recipe inside: a pinch of patience, a dash of kindness and a handful of love. that's what it says you need for yourself, for others. and just like that i rinse my hair ,once rather twice, with lavender shampoo -it chases the ghosts of yesterday, away; ever so slowly, brushing out all the tangles: all the good, all the bad. i take out the rusty scissors from my mother's aquamarine bag and let every brown lock fall on the floor. igniting everything. next comes the calendars, the dates, the dresses, the polaroids and just everything else. i break those glass bottles of perfumes, colognes, scents. i don't need them. they take me back to the bittersweet. all i need is myself, i realise, as i throw the ashes out the window. come what may, here i stand anew for the year to come. nothing can stop me now.

i'm. infinite. fearless. unstoppable.