Hopefully. [Poetry]

9. To Mom and Dad

Mom, Dad...

I am scared,
Not of the harsh world I am new to,
But about the fact that I will disappoint you.

I know you want me to do my best,
You want to keep pushing me
Till I reach success.
But open your eyes and see,
You indirectly hurting me.

Its suffocating me.

I know I haven't put my whole hearty efforts
In what you desired me to do,
But thats the point, I simply don't want to.

Please don't think of me as rebellious and restless.
Instead try and comprehend,
That its not my time yet.
  Making me do things I am uninterested in,
Is definitely not how I want my life to begin.

Its bad enough that people around me seem to know where they stand,
In times like this
all I want is for someone to understand.

Mom, Dad...
I really want to make you proud,
Ireally want to do something with my useless life.
But I dont know who I am yet,
And I just don't want to rush into things.

Its too much of a risk, I know.
Perhaps I may end up in dept.
But I am willing to take the chance against the world,
And the least thing I want,
Is for it to be is against you.

The doubt in your eyes,
I can see it,
See, that you think my decisions are rubbish,
That I am ruining my life
With a teenage rage.

Oh! How I wish you would ask me about my feelings,
Discuss your doubts
Instead of pushing me around,
Trying to get my flying feet on the ground.

Ma, Pa...
Honestly, all I want is a comforting embrace,
Not a disappointed doubtful face.

AN: ok...that seems sad but I swear I am not.

But even if i was sad, I would go to BTS. Its sad to know people think we armies have a stupid craze for them. When it's much more. Bangtan is just medicine for us weirdos.