Hopefully. [Poetry]

12. Crush

My friends say I am cold,
I'll agree.
I don't tolerate bullshit,
Insignificant opinions dont matter to me.

Oh but they were shocked,
Mouths left gaping,
Not only because they saw you jokingly tease my height,
But also when they saw that instead of spitting fire like I usually do,
All I did was let my cheeks blush bright.

As cheesy as it sounds,
I often ended up dumbfounded around you,
But I still managed to keep my cold, bold exterior.
You noticed it too.

But you were a jackass yourself,
For who gave you the right to call me weird petnames?
From mostly calling me ugly to suddenly saying I am cute when I laugh.
Did you not know the affect you had on me?

I know you only meant it as friends,
But I couldn't help it,
All these words, sweet and sour words,
Threw away all logical reasoning.

My homies observed you.
They thought the feelings were mutual.
I did too.
But sometimes you act so absurdly,
Its makes me as confused as a gay in denial, really!
You would give me your time,
Then suddenly push me away like a stranger.
What was wrong with you?

Then I did it,
I made a mistake
I surely regret.
I tried to make you jealous, to put your feelings to the test.

I shared our inside jokes to another boy,
Something only you and I knew
And no one else understood.
Gave him a little more attention,
Laughed with him too,
Whenever you looked in my direction.

Sadly, I guess it worked.
I made you jealous.
Jealous enough that you stopped hanging out with me,
Stopped sending me texts,
Those petnames were soon long forgotten,
And so was I, I guess.

You did say you wouldn't bother hanging out with me, you got better friends.
It seemed like you wouldn't acknowledge my presence around them.
Was I really that embarrassing?

And here we are.
We don't talk,
We call each other by our names.
Not that we need to, since we hardly exchange words.
And after a lot of time and distance between us,
All I can say is sorry,
I may have ruined something special
But I am over you now.

AN: this shit really happened to me. Its was sooooo confusing. I still dunno if he liked me ever tho. But yes he did ignore me and shit...after i kinda indirectly got him jealous. Gimme tips guys.

(After the comeback)
Guys....mikrokosmos and my poem stars are almost alike. I cant believe me and bts think the same.
Also i wrote it before bts, so i dont want complains in the future saying i copied their lyrics and shit