Just read it, you'll understand.
It's a bit of happy and a bit of sad.
Highest Ranking:
#7 in poems
#252 non fiction
Plagiarism is off the limits.
Started: 03-02-2019
Mention of suicide, self abuse, self pity, self hatred etc.
It's weird how well I can understand, Understand the meaning of being stuck. It's like I am living the word.
I really just wish to disappear sometimes, The world seems to be moving to fast. So is everyone. Except me.
I am still the same me I was when you first met me. Its my fault I didn't change, right? I am the one living with the memories, In hopes to make more. Not even realising I am being left behind. Dumb isn't it?
Why does it have to be like this? Why do I have to rush into everything like everyone? Is it really that bad if I am stuck in a pause, If I am waiting just to admire our old polaroid, To admire my mistakes and my retakes?
I am sorry I dont want to live my life filled with rush and thrills like a lighting in the clouds, I am sorry for wanting to be a wave in the ocean, That when wants to, can be a smoothly surfing beach wave Or a hell of a tsunami.
No, I am not living my life in the past. Neither am I depressed. I am just taking my time to know me better. To believe in me. And my abilities. And I am fudging sorry if I don't go by the schedule the world has set up. I am sorry I am not scared that death might catch up to me, That I am missing out on my life's best years.
I am soo sorry I am stuck, Thus forcing you guys to leave me. But more over, I am really sorry, For not truely being sorry for Who i am.
AN: i wrote this listening to mono, may or may not have cried. Especially Uhgood is soo underrated. Its my fav.
Also thank you girl, my rock, my support and might i say my wattpad bestie.Taexkookie99. You are literally my main hoe.
I am not sure if i said this before but i write how i feel, when i feel it. Sorry if this was cringey.
Also i never ever completely proof read my chapters. Sorry for the errors.
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