Never thought - Jotaro x reader

What is this feeling?

Your POV:

The rest of the trip Jotaro and I didn't interact much, every occasionally glance at one another was quick and awkward. I'm surprised nobody noticed that every time we looked at each other we'd both blush and get flustered. I guess we were good at hiding it. Sunday finally came and we were getting ready to leave, we were able to go to the gift shop before it was time to leave. So naturally everyone was buying souvenirs for their families or friends. I couldn't decide which items I wanted so I almost didn't make it on time, once I paid for my items I ran to the bus just in time. I was walking down the aisle to find a seat but most of them were full, I was hoping Kakyoin was saving a seat for me, but it was already taken. Jonathan was sitting next to him.

"Sorry (Y/N), Lisa Lisa-sensei was making the seating arrangement to make sure everyone fit, but Jotaro is sitting by himself so you could sit with him." Kakyoin said, he pointed to the very back of the bus.

'Great, just the person I wanted to spend the next few hours with...' I thought sarcastically.

"Thanks for letting me know," I said with a smile as I walked to the back of the bus.

Once I got the seat Jotaro was sitting in I gave him an apologetic look and asked if I could sit down. He stared at me for a second and got up.

"Oh you don't have to move I don't mind sitting on the outside." I said,

''Just get in." He said,

I scooted into the seat and then he sat down. Once everyone was seated the bus started moving. I felt awkward and nervous, I didn't want to sit next to him or even talk to him for a while. I looked out the window to get my mind off things, but I could see him in the reflection. He was reading, I studied his features in the reflection. His eyes, so focused on the page, the bridge of his nose, his ears and the little piercing, his sharp jawline, and finally his lips. His lips... They look so full for a guy, and so soft. They were soft, surprisingly. I felt my heart start to race, my memory flashed to our last kiss. My face exploded with heat, I didn't even notice he was looking at me through the reflection until now. I quickly look down at my lap, and start fiddling with my thumbs. I hope he didn't notice I was staring.

"What's wrong?" I heard him ask,

"N-nothing.." I stuttered, 'nice going, now he totally doesn't know. Why did I have to stutter' I thought.

"Are you sure?" He asks,

"Yeah, I think I'm just tired. I had trouble sleeping, Suzie was moving around a lot and it kept waking me." I explained,

I felt his hand grab the back of my head, then his cheek was on my forehead. I got even redder. He let's go.

"You were red, just checking for a fever." He said,

"O-oh..." I said. I felt slightly disappointed.

It was quiet now. I wasn't sure if it was awkward, but now I felt awkward. There were so many thoughts running through my mind right now. I didn't know how to feel or react. I just want to go to sleep and wake up to everything not being weird. Jotaro closes his book and gets out a piece of paper, he starts writing. When he was done he handed it to me. I grab it, glance at him, then read the paper.

'What's really bothering you?' the note asked,

I rummage through my bag for a pen, once I found one I wrote my response. 'I don't know how to act right now.' I write.

He reads it and responses, 'You don't have to be all awkward, you can act like nothing happened.' he wrote.

I felt weird, 'how can I act like nothing happened when something really big happened'

'It's not too big of a deal.' he wrote,

Why is he acting like this, did it mean nothing to him? Is he just messing with me? I wanted to cry a little.

'Did it not mean anything? If it didn't tell me now before I over think all this. You keep asking me how I feel about you, then you kiss me and now you're saying it wasn't a big deal what's wrong with you?" I write, my eyes were getting watery. I was frustrated and a little hurt.

He looks at the paper for a couple seconds, then writes. 'I'm sorry, that wasn't what I meant. I didn't want to pressure you into telling me how you feel about me or anything. That's why I said it wasn't a big deal, maybe I used the wrong words. I felt bad for doing that because I want to give you the time and space you need. I know we didn't get off to the best start and I like what we've built up to. I kinda don't want to loose that.'

I read his response, I was shocked. I never thought Jotaro was this thoughtful, I look at him but he doesn't look back. He looks a little worried, his face was slightly pink. I look back at the note.

"Sorry, I took it to heart. I overreacted a bit." I apologized,

He leaned over to whisper in my ear, "you don't have to apologize, you bring out a lot of emotions in me that I don't know how to express. Sorry if I use the wrong words sometimes. You just make my mind go crazy.''

He pulls back, my face was on fire. All of this is crazy. What the hell is this feeling? I glanced at him, we make eye contact. I quickly look away, I might overheat if this continues. He grabs my head a puts it against his chest, I could hear his heart beating wildly.

"This is how you make me feel, and just like you I don't know how to deal with it." He says quietly.

I look up at him blushing, luckily no one noticed all this happening. He let's go and I sit up. He's blushing. I put my hand over my heart and feel it going just as fast as his. I lean my head on the window and think about how similar we are feeling. I start to think of everything that's happened and about how he might feel about me. If he feels this then does that mean we have the same idea about each other? Do I like him? Am I ready? So many thoughts run through my head. My hand was still on my chest, and my other was on the seat. I feel my heart beat and listen to the rhythm as I think. Then suddenly I feel something warm on my hand. I look down and see Jotaro's hand on mine. I look at him and he's just looking straight, his ears and cheeks are pink. Oh boy, there's a lot happening right now. I don't say anything, I don't move, I just continue looking out the window. His hand is so warm, it feels nice. After a few minutes I feel his hand move, I start to move mine with it. We explore each other's hand, the difference in size, the roughness of his finger tips, the curve of his knuckles, I study the way it all feels. Then finally our fingers interlock. The way my hand fits into his is a bit strange but a nice feeling. I glanced down at how our hands held each other. My face was the reddest it could be and I'm sure his was too. The only thing I could think of was how nice and naturally this all felt. I liked this a lot, I feel so comfortable with him. So safe. I slowly lean my head against his shoulder, and after a few minutes I slowly fall asleep.
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Jotaro's POV:

I studied her from the corner of my eye as she stared out the window, her hand was over her heart and the other on the seat. She looked like she was lost in thought. I glanced down at the hand she had on the seat, and slowly put mine on top of hers. I saw her head move, but I didn't dare look at her. My face was warm and my heart was racing. I've never felt like this before. Her hand was warm and soft, and after a few minutes I felt brave enough to grab her hand more. She moved with me, I felt around her small delicate hand. It was so soft, so small. Like if I were to just grab it, it'd shatter. She felt around my hand and I kept still, I could feel her soft finger tips graze the top of my hand and touch my knuckles. I bet they feel really rough to her. Then eventually we interlocked fingers, the smoothness of her tiny knuckles against my rough finger tips was so soothing. The way her tiny hand wrapping around mine felt so right. This felt so nice, I didn't know it'd be like this. It felt right. She then put her head on my shoulder, she sighed and I could tell she fell asleep. I slowly lean my head on top of hers, and gave her a small kiss on her forehead. I didn't want anyone to notice so I sat back up. The rest of the ride home was so peaceful. I like this.
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This was a short little chapter for the ride home. I wanted to do a little scene of reader and Jotaro without disturbances, since I feel like I've been a bit mean throughout the story with them always getting interrupted when you guys have a moment ;P Anyway hope you enjoyed, and as always let me know what you think and have a splendid day! ❤️