For Better Or For Worse (rewrite/ Continuation)

Chapter 37

Two weeks later, October 7 (1998), late at night,

After her concert in East Rutherford in New Jersey, Janet made her way to Manhattan and arrived at the penthouse around three in the morning to surprise the others and to visit her little niece Melody since she couldn't visit her sooner because of her busy tour shedule but she was going to be in New York for a few days now, which meant she could visit the penthouse

She managed to quietly make her way to the guestroom next to Melody's room to catch a few hours of sleep

"Learn to be more quiet if you're tryna sneak into your brother's place" Michael who stepped out of Melody's room after feeding her her 2:30 AM bottle smiled at his little sister

"Oh my god you scared the shit out of me!" Janet gasped, not expecting him to find out she came over to surprise them

"Did you even finish your concert? Where the hell did you fly from at this hour?" Michael asked after welcoming her with a hug

"I was in New Jersey so I thought I might as well stay here for a few days instead of in some hotel" Janet answered " And I wanna meet my little niece" She added

"She just got back to sleep" Michael answered

"And Trace too? I can imagine it's tiring to breastfeed in the middle of the night" Janet mentioned

"No Trace is awake, having some bussines call to Milan or Tokyo about fashion and fabrics and models or so" Michael answered

"Because she was up anyway to feed Melody?" Janet assumed

"No, Trace kind of has postnatal depression, meaning she wants nothing to do with Melody but says she does love her tho, which basically means I'm a stay at home single dad but married to my daughter's mother" Michael explained

"Hold on, did Trace talk to someone?" Janet asked him

"No, she's too busy for that she says" Michael answered

"I'll talk to her in the morning" Janet promised

"Sure, maybe she listens to you" Michael sighed

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A few hours later,

Tracee and Janet sat on the couch enjoying some coffee to start the day while Michael took care of Melody

"Why are you so scared to talk to a professional?" Janet asked

"Because they'll tell the media and next thing you know is I'm the crazy person who can't love her own child or thinks fashion is more important than my family" Tracee answered "You know the first few months when I found out I was pregnant and we went to South Africa, I miss those days" She sighed

"You can go back with Melody too" Janet mentioned

"That's what your brother said too but it's her cries that irritate me and the feeling of breastfeeding doesn't feel good either, not to mention I'm scared I'd drop her" Tracee replied sadly

"You've held all our nieces and nephews when they were babies and plenty of newborns during the hospital visits on the tours and charity work" Janet reminded her "So why are you scared to hold your own child?" She asked

"Because I'm only failing to have children, I lost two babies before, it's like in my mind I'm protecting myself from feeling like that again" Tracee sniffed

"But you've a beautiful healthy little girl now, doesn't she deserve your love?" Janet mentioned

"Of course she does and I do love her but I'm afraid to hold her at the same time" Tracee answered