To Lose Control

Chapter 8

-Taylor's POV-

I woke up with warmth surrounding my body. I was so comfortable that I would've stayed longer if it wasn't for the fact that quickly memories from earlier that day didn't come hitting me like a bus.

I jolted awake freaking out and getting ready to apologize, when I felt strong, muscles arm keeping me in place, not allowing me to move an inches.

I looked up briefly before quickly averting my gaze. He was looking so intensely at me it made me feel weird.

"I-"

"Are you feeling better?"

I slowly lifted my head to look up at him, but quickly averted my gaze again. They were just too much to look at. Too intense. They made my feel like I was being preyed on.

I nodded.

I then realized I was still on this man's lap and I felt conflicted because I liked it. A little too much too. I wondered whether I should've gotten up or not, but I didn't.

He gently petted my hair as I unconsciously leaned into his touch. I didn't know I'd love being petted as much I do. But I guess I wouldn't have known at all since I hated being touched. By other people at least.

"Are you hungry? " he whispered near my ears, his lips slightly brushing passed them. I felt a sudden heat start to rise from my neck. I knew that it was intentional. He had done it on purpose. That thought made me blush even more as I tried to hide my blood red face.

I was hungry, but I wasn't about to admit that. It was embarrassing enough that I fell asleep on his lap! Just thinking of it made my face flush red again! It seems as though this man just knews how to get you feeling some type of way..

"No," I responded quietly.

"Don't lie to me, Kitten"

His voice was stern, as if demanding the truth from me, and hearing him say that in that tone to say the least, made me want to never lie to him ever again and that feeling confused me.

Very confused.

Just as I was about to deny all accusations, my stomach grumbled loudly. It was almost impossibly loud. As if my stomach didn't want me lying either. And I couldn't believe that my own body would betray me like that.

Just great!

"Yes," I nodded finally being honest. I mean there was no hiding it now.

"Good boy," he petted my head and I didn't know why but that little praise made me feel happy?

I didn't know why I somewhat liked it, but what I did know was that I was really hungry and I could literally eat anything.

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He ordered food and when it came I was a bit hesitant at first because the food was all for me. And there was a lot. I didn't think I'd be able to eat all of it, but I'd be damned to let the rest I couldn't eat go to waste. I planned on saving it for later.

I looked up at him, asking if it was ok. He gently nodded his head yes and I felt a giddy feeling because I just knew the food would taste wonderful.

I didn't waste time to start shoving food down my throat.

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I ate all the food I could consume and I was completely full and even a little exhausted.

Looking up at Mr. Stone, he had I somewhat pleased expression on his face? But I was probably reading it wrong.

"Are you full, kitten?"

I was too full to even try to acknowledge that he'd called me kitten. So I just simply nodded.

"I'll take you home," he offered.

But I shook my head protesting and said, "No, it's ok. I've caused you enough trouble already, Mr. Stone"

" I wasn't asking,"

"I uh-" I didn't really know what to say, because I didn't want him to see that shitty appartment again, but he wasn't giving me a choice.

"Actually I'll just stay here and do the work that I didn't do today,"

The thought had just occurred to me. I didn't work at all today and that made me feel uneasy. I didn't want to be useless.

He stared emotionless at me. I couldn't even try to read him. He wasn't an open book.

Why did he have to stare like that?

"I'll just um leave. Thank you for the food and uh, um the other thing," I laughed nervously as I walked backwards slowly to leave.

I hadn't realized it during my time with him, but he made me completely forget about my episode morning.

I was feeling 10 times better now, despite the embarrassing moment of falling asleep on his lap and eating like a complete animal right in front of him.

Just the thought had me screaming in my head in agony.

My hand was on the doorknob, my back facing Mr. Stone,when felt some on top of it. Warm and rough, but calming at the same time.

Just like when it ran through my hair, petting me and making me relax.

I sucked in a breath, staring at his hand on top of mine as I felt his minty breath on my neck.

His breath was almost icy cold. It was as if he'd eaten a whole block of ice before trapping me in this position. And as his cold breath ran across my skin, I couldn't help but feel slightly turned on.

"Where are you going?" He growled right next to my ear. "I said that I'd take you home."

I quickly nodded. "Ok"

He stepped away from me and I realized felt a bit disappointed. I couldn't help but wonder what would have happened if it went a little further.

But I just deemed myself to be losing my mind for even thinking that. I think this man was making me crazy. Delusional even.

I bit my lip as I watched my hand still on the doorknob. I felt too embarrassed to turn around. I didn't even do anything wrong, but I felt guilty..

I felt unsteady as I tightened my grip on the doorknob. I felt angry at myself suddenly. Why had I let this man do these things for me, to me?

I could handle myself. I don't need anyone.

I would've just walked out if he wasn't my boss. I knew better than to play with my luck, so I kept my composure.

Turning around a plastered a fake expression on my face. I wasn't smiling of course, I wasn't up to that level of faking expressions yet, but it was an expression that was calm and collected.

I might've been putting on a whole show at that moment, but I knew I'd completely break down once I'd reached my apartment.

I knew I'd go home feeling the exact same way I'd felt when I left it.

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A/N:

I hope you enjoyed this chapter. I'm planning to update way more often now that summer's here so look forward to that. And feel free to tell me if I made any spelling mistakes on this chapter or any other for that matter. Anyway thank you for reading! ♡♡

- drousyy♡