Wishing On The Stars

hide and seek

We're just playing hide and seek
with our emotions
Don't know how to feel
so we don't show it

Pretend we're doing okay
they don't know it
Pretend it's just a mood
and it won't stop growing

Telling our friends they're scars
and we're not cutting
Pretending we've always been this way now it's showing

Thinking the numbness is gone, is it?
Crying in our pillows
do they know that?

Makeup covering up for
our facade we don't see it
Thinking our poetry's not autobiographical, is it?

Waiting for it just to stop
or to pause it?
Running out of time do we know that?

When will someone find me,
how will they know then?
Open up the doors to find
me hiding in some clothing

don't know if i'm closeted
don't know if i'm gay -
Don't know who I am
isn't that the same?

So close your eyes
Count to ten
The real me's gone
You won't find me near
I'm gone inside
I disappeared