Wishing On The Stars

mom

i'm waiting for the day
i'll be unshakable
i'm waiting for the day
when i'll fear none
i'm waiting for the day
when i won't get hurt
i'm waiting for the day
to move out of your house

you took my home corrupted it
threw my dreams away
left me breathless
wondering
how it all changed
you took my heart
and threw it
pelted my soul with demons

you played me
acted all innocent
blocked me from things
i would've loved

my family
now nonexistent
thanks to you, mom

i used to dream of tea
in the mornings
with the queen
now i dream of freedom,
from you, control freak

i was forced to mature fast
as you became so weak
your husband died
the new one fucked up

i'm your victim this week
as you stare me down
i wish i was unshakable
as you watch me shatter
i wish i could shut you out

i wish you were the mother
from the olden times
before life came
and broke you

i wish you were the mother
any child deserves
but i'm stuck with you
for 4 more years
i don't know
how much i can take

before you shatter me
to my core
spoil me with expensive shit
i probably don't need

all i want is your love mom
and for you to show it unconditionally
all i want is for you to be here for me
but you won't