17. Bitter Struggle for Survival

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Zhishu He was too painful to walk after the chemotherapy. This time Zhishu He didn't refuse Ziyu Ai when Ai held his hand to help him to lie on the bed in Ai's office for a rest. They both kept silent, but Ziyu Ai strongly felt that an unspeakable feeling in the heart became stronger than ever. Ziyu Ai was sure that he had lost his heart to Zhishu He.

Zhishu He's face was as pale as the white sheet on bed. His eyes were dull and inanimate. Ziyu Ai gave him a cup of hot water, and said, "Drink some water?"

Zhishu He didn't answer, and only murmured after quite a while, "I am cold..."

No blanket was available here, as Ziyu Ai barely slept in the office. Ziyu Ai couldn't find anything but He's light tan down jacket, which was so heavy. So he covered Zhishu He with it.

Zhishu He tightly hugged the down jacket. His pinched face surrounded with the fox fur on the brim of the jacket hat boasted kind of morbid fascination. Zhishu He seemed extremely fragile at the moment.

"You don't look well. Considering you physical condition, I suggest you stay in hospital," sitting beside Zhihe Shu, Ziyu Ai thought for a while before speaking again. "You can't keep it from your family or your boyfriend. It is too hard to handle this on your own."

Zhishu He slowly regained his consciousness. His eyes were gentle as before, and his mood was always restrained. Zhishu He softly shook his head, and said, "I don't want to stay in hospital. I will live as long as God allows me to live."

The one with ultimate love for his or her partner would struggle for survival and live for her or him. Happy life had become a distant dream for Zhishu He, so he just let nature take its course. If Zhishu He was lucky enough to die early, then his love for Wenxu Jiang would end at the same day.

Ziyu Ai could perceive that Zhishu He's life was not as simple as he previously imagined. Ai couldn't figure it out, but he didn't ask anything.

Zhishu He knew very well that he had caused a lot of trouble for Doctor Ai. When he felt better, he thanked Ziyu Ai with politeness and was immediately ready to leave.

"I'll call you for the next appointment of chemotherapy," Ziyu Ai was unable to make him stay, so he only came out with such a poor excuse to call him again.

It took a few seconds for Zhishu He to realize what Ziyu Ai meant. However, Zhishu He only replied with a nod.

Zhishu He could see that Ziyu Ai was hesitating to say something, as his facial expression betrayed him. After a while, as Zhishu He was curiously waiting, Ziyu Ai suddenly said, "Your body can't handle sex now. You need to stop..."

Surprisingly, Zhishu He didn't feel too embarrassed. On the contrary, He was slightly moved by Ziyu Ai's kindness, so he nodded obediently..... Click the external link to read the whole chapter 17 ↓

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