Confused // Sean Mcloughlin

chapter 10

Few days later

Sean's/jacks pov

I parked my car and walked through all the people, there was no one i knew here. When (y/n) said he was going to be here, for some reason i said i was going to be here too, with a friend of mine. But that's just it, none of my friends came except (y/n) and i don't even know where he is.

I walk around for a while, got something to eat, and watched the parade go on. Eventually it got dark, i looked at my watch to see it was 8:21. I walked around some more and saw a bar. I walked in deciding to get a drink or two. When i entered i saw a guy with his head on the table, in his arms and an empty glass next to him. He must have had one too many.

Of course the seat next to him was the only one open so i sat there and ordered a drink. The guy sat up and looked at me. It was (y/n). He smiled, and called the other bartender over. Once the bartender was in front of him, he said "another one please". The bartender nodded, took his glass and left.

I stood up and said "no, I'm getting you home, come on" and grabbed his hand and left, forgetting about the drink i ordered. We walked for a few minutes and i asked him where his car was, he said that he walked here. I got him into the passenger seat of my car and then i got into the drivers seat. I started the car and asked (y/n) for directions to where he was staying.

Surprisingly he gave me the right directions without messing up. Once we were there i got him out of the car and we headed to his apartment.

He game me the key and i unlocked the door. We went inside and i closed the door.

As soon as the door closed he kissed me. I kissed him back and put my arms around his neck as he set his on my sides pulling me closer. He smelled amazing.

I pulled away and looked him in his eyes then said "no, we can't do this...i can't just take advantage of your drunken state...and I'm not even into guys, plus its-" i was cut off by him kissing me again.

I wanted to pull away but at the same time i didn't. After a moment of kissing he pulled away and only then, i noticed we had moved from the door to the bedroom.

I wanted him so bad.

But....i can't..I'm.. I'm not gay

"(Y/n) your drunk! You don't know what your doing"

He stood up straight, gave a gentle smile and said "do i smell or act like I've been drinking?"

He doesn't smell like alcohol... Or act like a drunken person...wait...was it water that he's been drinking?

"So you're not-" again he cut me off by kissing me. I want to get mad that he keeps cutting me off when i talk but this felt so amazing. Oh no...

Not again.