forget you || byler

seventeen

Mike was nervous

actually no, he was terrified

facing will meant facing his feelings

the ones he'd been trying to ignore for far too long

mike had been driving for 10 hours now, on Christmas Eve with nothing other than his thoughts to keep him company

and in these 10 hours he had realized something, something incredibly important

Mike wheeler had not grown up in the most accepting of house holds

his parents, more so his dad, were very old fashioned and very religious

meaning that he grew up hearing about how "fags" or queers were sick, were wrong

so Mike wheeler grew up hating himself

hating every time he'd catch himself staring at a boy for too long

hating everytime he was thinking about will in ways a boy shouldn't be

hating everytime he kissed el but wished it was will

he hated himself so so much

and he hated the fact that he was gay

well not gay

he was what Steve was

bisexual

and he hated it

he hated the fact that he had to hide part of who he was just so his dad didn't hate him

he hated the fact that he had to live 14 years of his life in denial

hiding part of who he was from even himself

and even more than all that, he hated  but that he didn't love el the way he was supposed to

he hated that he loved will Byers

from his shy smile to his doe eyes

he was undeniably perfect

and Mike wheeler was a queer

el was right

that's when Mike broke down sobbing

Mike hated himself for all those reasons, but mainly because he had hurt will

and that he could never forgive himself for

you see when you have nothing else but your thoughts for 10 hours, you do a lot of thinking

and in mikes case that was good and bad

because yes he felt horrible but also he could fix things before it was too late

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*wills pov*

Eddie kaspbrak had left around half an hour ago to spend the night and christmas with Richie. of course will had been invited to join but he didn't  want to intrude

so he simply was planning on spending Christmas alone or with Stan (who by the way was one of the best people will had ever met)

at the present moment will Byers was curled up by the fire with a mug of hot chocolate in hand. trying desperately to ignore the fact that it was cold out

because he hated the cold

and above that he wished Mike was there to hold him, to keep him warm

his nightmares had become worse and worse since he left Hawkins, since he left Mike.

because Mike had made him feel
safe like nothing could hurt him

but now? will felt anything but safe

a knock on the door startled will, causing him to spill hot chocolate down his shirt

he groaned and attempted to wipe the drink off of him before heading to the door

he swung it open, revealing a shivering Mike, covered in glistening snowflakes

"Mike" will whispered

the clock struck midnight

"merry Christmas" Mike whispered back

with that will ran into mikes arms, not caring that he was probably becoming covered in snow

not caring that he was out in the cold

he had Mike without el there

and honestly? that's the best Christmas present will could ever ask for