after a long time i think i've come to terms with everything.
i now remember what being happy feels like.
everyone wants or needs happiness but this overwhelming joy just doesn't seem right to me.
i haven't felt this feeling since i was a lot younger so i suppose i have to get used to it.
there's finally a pang in my heart,
i don't know what for but it feels unknown yet, nice?
i finally know who to let into my life and even though that's only a small number of people, i don't mind.
of course not everything is great but i finally feel better in myself.
a long break from the current schedule i follow would be nice but that's not happening soon so i may as well get used to it.
